We used to be best friends now he doesn't even act as if he likes me

[KJBA2816]

Hey, I was wondering if anyone could give me some serious advice on my problem because I really don't know where to turn anymore.

Basically I have been best friends with my boyfriend for 4 years and I have seen what he is like in relationships, they usually don't last very long and he moves on very quickly. But as his best friend I have always been there for him. I had never had any feelings or attraction towards him at all but I used to be very overweight and this year I have lost around 8 stone and I am pretty much at my healthy weight now and in September my then best friend tried to kiss me and later told me he had liked me for a while, at first I was very against it because I didn't want to be like the other girls and I didn't want to lose him if this ended badly but then I began to feel attracted to him and I wanted him, so he was really sweet and we spoke about everything and he promised so many things we decided to give it a go. We kept it secret for a while then we told our family and friends a few weeks later. The first 3 weeks were the best weeks of my life, we used to text all the time, he used to tell me how much he couldn't believe he had me, he works a lot so the rush of urgency and this amazing feeling when we seen each other, I had never felt more amazing. Then 3 weeks into our relationship there was a major death in his family, I had known his family for a long time so I comforted them and I was there for my boyfriend in anyway possible I took a week off uni to be there that week and went to the funeral. Now this affected my boyfriend badly because he was close to this family member and he was a little different but he still acted like my boyfriend, I have never had to deal with death so I didn't know what he was going through but I tried my best by giving him space or being there for him or whatever he wanted me to do and it was rocky but we worked together as a couple and it was still a good relationship but this past week, he has been so distant, like he has been almost cruel. I told him I know he has a lot to deal with but don't push me away, like if you seen us you wouldn't think we were a couple and he ignores me and doesn't kiss me or hold me and he isn't very sweet anymore and I told him everything I was feeling and he told me he still wants to be with me but he is taking it one day at a time which I fully appreciate but he just acts so distant. He also texts this one girl all the time even when I'm with him and it makes me feel like crap. I have been so confused and upset over this. Please don't think I am not taking what happened with his family into account and I am being selfish and want my boyfriend to myself I just want him to kinda act like my boyfriend, I was treated better as his friend and I don't want to end it because I love him and I know he is going through a tough time. It just seems even though he was the one who wanted this relationship first I seem to be more interested in him now. I am just so confused, I want him to do whatever he can to cope but I can't keep feeling this low and lonely about it, I have never felt so terrible about anything in my life

Cheers for any help

KJBA2816 x