He still loves me..

[FlyAway&ComeBack]

Sooo.. IN Feb me & my Fiance of 2 years broke up, I tried so hard to be with him up until May, then we stopped talking went on with our own business, he no longer lovedme,since he said that he didn't or wanted me.. Late August I had to go to his house to get something cause all my stuff was still over there and he saw me.. And That was the first time we saw each other since April. He texted me the next morning around 2 saying he still loved me and wanted me etc.. He hadn't been with anyone else ( we lost our virginities together), I had cheated on him a little after our first year, he knew and still asked me to marry him and we worked it out.. He felt like it was his fault because he was pushing me away with his low self eesteem and he just wasn't happy with himself at all and he always accused me of doing EVERYTHING, when in all reality I just wanted him.. He didn't see that, and he said that that's when I questioned that he wasn't "the one" for me, when I never questioned that, I questioned that he would ever believe me & trust me.. He had always been the one.. Anyways we had just started talking again after that one day I saw him he missed me and I missed him.. I still loved him, just not in love.. But It onlytaks so much time before you fall back in love with someone who never gave your heart back.. So we talk and see each other frequently now a days.. BUT he says that before we get back together he wants to sleep with someone else.. That kind of confuses me.. He hasn't even kissed anyone else in almost 3 years.. How could he sleep with someone? He still has low self esteem.. and everything I just am confused at why he wants to sleep with someone else before we get back together if we do? Any suggestions? I think it's because I've been with someone else..So he wants to see, also he wants to know if he makes other girls happy and not just me because I have feelings for him.. He thinks he can't and just wants to show me that the only reason why I enjoy our sex is because I love him.. It does make a difference, but not a tremendous difference.. I just don't think I could deal with him sleeping with someone else , I know thats hypocritical of me.. because he has delt with it before.. but he knows that I would never cheat on him again and that is the only thing in my life that I will regret.. But how would yall feel.. just thoughts and opinions..