SummerLady Posted November 20, 2011 Share Posted November 20, 2011 I am 40. I am divorced and remarried. 2 kids. Not sure where the time has went. A highschool friend of mine that I have not seen since graduation died of a massive heart attack. He was also 40. I was just crushed when I heard this. I moved out of the area at 25 and only keep in touch with a few folks. I pulled out my yearbook from a box. Had not seen it in forever. I just sat down and cried. I know this is part of life but it was hard to hear of his death. We were friends platonic in highschool and last time i saw him he was full of life. I told my husband and he felt bad but I got the everyone dies speech. I understand. But than he said to me. You have never really grown up. You never have let go of the past. So I thought about this for days. He is right. In a large way I have never let go of my younger years. Probably as i had a good chidhood. No fighting. No divorce. No drama. Sure the normal stuff but nothing out of the "norm". My adult years have been great but divorced with 2 kids and remarried is quite a different factor than what I grew up with. My 2nd husband knows me so well. I always knew what he expressed. It's just odd to finally deal with it. In many ways I am still a kid 16 living that life. But that is not me anymore But so much of who I am now. Not sure how to balance it all. Not sure if anyone here feels that way? Or Its just me? Link to post Share on other sites
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