issohard Posted December 5, 2011 Share Posted December 5, 2011 Hello everyone, Is one year since the A ended. I survived the pain Recently I have decided to take some time off from work as thing were getting a bit crazy and I am considering whether to resume back to work where also my xMM works or not. I have one more month off to think so I havent decided yet. However I am keep having this dreams about him for the last few weeks and this is keep bothering me. I wake up in the morning and I remember them. I don't remember ever dreaming about him before so why they just happened now. You will think is weird but there is always a water presence in my dreams and I googled it and water in the dreams express the soul. Also in my first dream I remember my xMM giving me a engagent ring. On my second dream we were in regisrty office about to get married. And in my third dream we were in some school building and he was looking for my attention. I would have mentioned but this is really keep bothering me why suddenly I have this strong realistic dreams which I can remember very well. Has anyone experience something similar? Many Thanks Link to post Share on other sites
Ruby_shoes Posted December 5, 2011 Share Posted December 5, 2011 Hello everyone, Is one year since the A ended. I survived the pain Recently I have decided to take some time off from work as thing were getting a bit crazy and I am considering whether to resume back to work where also my xMM works or not. I have one more month off to think so I havent decided yet. However I am keep having this dreams about him for the last few weeks and this is keep bothering me. I wake up in the morning and I remember them. I don't remember ever dreaming about him before so why they just happened now. You will think is weird but there is always a water presence in my dreams and I googled it and water in the dreams express the soul. Also in my first dream I remember my xMM giving me a engagent ring. On my second dream we were in regisrty office about to get married. And in my third dream we were in some school building and he was looking for my attention. I would have mentioned but this is really keep bothering me why suddenly I have this strong realistic dreams which I can remember very well. Has anyone experience something similar? Many Thanks Yes I have. I posted the other day but half my message seems to have vanished but I mentioned dreams. Despite me moving on in a lot of ways the dreams really make me feel low! I don't know what to say but I get these too so your not alone. I also get flashbacks and they can make me feel odd too. I hope you feel better soon! Link to post Share on other sites
Spark1111 Posted December 5, 2011 Share Posted December 5, 2011 Hello everyone, Is one year since the A ended. I survived the pain Recently I have decided to take some time off from work as thing were getting a bit crazy and I am considering whether to resume back to work where also my xMM works or not. I have one more month off to think so I havent decided yet. However I am keep having this dreams about him for the last few weeks and this is keep bothering me. I wake up in the morning and I remember them. I don't remember ever dreaming about him before so why they just happened now. You will think is weird but there is always a water presence in my dreams and I googled it and water in the dreams express the soul. Also in my first dream I remember my xMM giving me a engagent ring. On my second dream we were in regisrty office about to get married. And in my third dream we were in some school building and he was looking for my attention. I would have mentioned but this is really keep bothering me why suddenly I have this strong realistic dreams which I can remember very well. Has anyone experience something similar? Many Thanks It is not unusual to dream of an x, especially since you may have concerns of seeing him again if you do return to the job. More importantly, how does the dream make you feel? What feelings can you tap into when you awake? Scared? Anxious? Calm? Dream feelings are what is important. They are a key to the "unfinished" business in your psyche. Link to post Share on other sites
Author issohard Posted December 5, 2011 Author Share Posted December 5, 2011 I dont know if I can describe myself. I remember one morning when I woke up of deaming of him and I have been shoouting inside my head "why are you bothering me, why are you doing this". The dreams are so intense and realilistic and picture is so clear that it makes me feel weak again. It feels like it happened the day before. Yes I want to start fresh and I want new me.. I glad I am not the only one because I thought I am going mad Thanks Link to post Share on other sites
18Years2Late Posted December 5, 2011 Share Posted December 5, 2011 (edited) xMM used to tell me all the time about dreams he had about "us"...one day after our 3rd dday when he crawled back professing his undying love for me and saying he chose me...I told him I didn't dream about him anymore and I didn't know why...he got his feathers ruffled and I said "well $h*t thinking about you in my waking hours is bad enough so should you mess up my sleep too?"...he got pissed...I didn't believe any of his lies so thinking about him at the time wasn't good...so maybe I subconsciously blocked dreams of him???... Now that it is over between "us" I think I still do that...I'm not at the point of indifference (the promise land) yet...Only about 5-6 months NC so I have good days and bad days still...so when I do "allow" a dream of him to get thru it hurts and ensures me a bad day that day...maybe your dreams are "getting thru" because you are at indifference...doesn't matter if u dream of him or not...doesn't affect you negatively...so your guard is down...that would b a good thing right?...just my thoughts... Edited December 5, 2011 by 18Years2Late Link to post Share on other sites
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