Nikki82 Posted December 7, 2011 Share Posted December 7, 2011 I made a long post a couple months back about my mother. I'll try to keep this one shorter. Basically she's lived alone for over 8 years since my parent's divorce. The divorce was years in the making with fighting, her racking up secret bills, getting hooked on prescription drugs, and becoming physically violent. My dad wasn't perfect either, but no where near her behavior. Anyway, she's not the person I remembered as a kid. Maybe that's because as a kid, I didn't see the real her. I (and my sister and dad) believe she's still abusing Vicadin. In fact, I know because I found an email of hers that was a receipt of over $200 of the stuff. She lies a lot. She starts fights. She accuses me and my sister of being terrible daughters after we try to help her. I'm trying to be as brief as possible, so ask for examples if you feel the need... But I promised myself that I would no longer put up with her behavior. The last straw was a few months ago when I almost had an anxiety attack while on my post-deployment vacation because of her constant calls and voicemails! I didn't deserve that at all. While I was in Afghanistan, she sent me pleasant emails. But as soon as I'm safe back home, it's back to telling me that I don't love her and that I'm a terrible daughter. She even accused me of giving better gifts to my dad and sister from Afghanistan than her. That was of course not true and hurt. So I cut her off after her last random calls to me accusing me of loving my step-mom and calling my mom a "bitch". It's like she just makes this stuff up and can believe it. It must be the drugs. She's been to rehab and she keeps telling us (out of nowhere) that she's not on drugs. That's a sign in itself. Her birthday and Thanksgiving have passed since I cut her off. She can't call me. She can't leave me voicemails. Overall, I feel SO much better without her in my life. I feel....happy! I feel....less stressed! But sometimes I think about her and can't help but feel sorry because she's so miserable and all alone. But I know she did it to herself. I guess I'm just sharing... And seeing if anyone can relate out there with my choice. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Nikki82 Posted December 8, 2011 Author Share Posted December 8, 2011 What timing. Since late Sept when I cut her off, she hasn't emailed me, which was her only way of contacting me since I blocked her calls. Well, just a few mins ago, she emailed me. The title is "bet u wont read this". I have not read it. Just seeing the title made my heart drop. Should I just delete it without reading it? It's definitely a negative message, whatever it says. Suggestions greatly appreciated for extra strength in this. Link to post Share on other sites
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