Wesker Posted December 21, 2011 Share Posted December 21, 2011 A couple links for my backstory. http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t284031/ http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t290965/ http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t294507/ So I"m 6 months of of getting dumped, and my heart totally crushed. Looking back from the very to beginning to now, I'm doing way better. Denial is gone. Helplessness is gone. Thoughts of getting back are non-existent. Still have these flashes of anger whenever I see something that brings back a memory. Working out all this time, I dropped over 15lbs, and in the best shape since a long time. Road to healing right? Well, maybe. It seems like the past couple weeks, depression has been setting in more. Prolly because of the time of year, and that it's finally hitting me that for the first time in 7 years, I'll be dateless for New Years. It's just not that though. Seems like nothing is going right lately. No real prospects on the horizon. Hell, I'm even sucking on my sports betting during the weekends..ha I think the real kick in the nuts came a couple days ago when I walked by my ex (we work at the same place), and saw this huge rock on her finger. I guess I really shouldn't be surprised though. That was set in stone for awhile now. More of a shock of seeing it the first time. I guess I just can't get past how somebody can just throw away over 7 years just like that, and basically have a brand new life. How someone you poured your heart for, and trusted could have lived a total lie for a year. I've accepted my blame on why some of the relationship took a fall. I can live it that, and am learning from it. I just wish the old "Karma" would hit her just once, and have her finally see her faults, and flaws; and realize that you can't spin everything on someone else fault. Whether that happens I guess is really meaningless at this point. 6 months out of a 7+ year relationship takes time it seems like. Link to post Share on other sites
Philosoraptor Posted December 22, 2011 Share Posted December 22, 2011 All I can say is that if you've made it this far you just need to snap yourself out of it. Continue to focus on yourself and working towards making your own dreams come true. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Wesker Posted December 23, 2011 Author Share Posted December 23, 2011 Yeah, I guess you're right. Instead of dreading New Year's Eve, I should embrace it as a chance to start anew. Who knows what may come about in the next year. Thanks. Link to post Share on other sites
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