I have my ups and downs

[Randybrandt]

I have my ups and my downs. One minute I miss her like crazy wanting to give her a call and say merry christmas and the next I want to go over to her flat and hope the boyfriend is there and yell at them and say hope you have a merry christmas because you certainly ruined mine you cheating witch. I am slowly getting better and better everyday but there is still part of me that wishes I could of done something like maybe be more attentive or so many things but I know the relationship was slowly falling apart and while she never told me she wanted to end it even though she will swear up and down she did I just wish we had been more honest with each other or talked more but instead she avoided things and lead me on making me think everything was okay. I loved her very much and I know everyday I will get stronger and slowly get over her but right now it still hurts because I wish I could of fixed things.

Edited December 25, 2011 by Randybrandt

[Philosoraptor]

You had nothing to fix if she was a cheater. She messed up by not communicating... no one can force someone else to cheat.

 

Keep working on yourself and you will get to more of a normal feeling.

[Randybrandt]

Thanks she was a terrible talker. She would always change the subject and not say what she was going to say and the funny part when I found out she was cheating she said I was the one who didn't listen She said I would change the subject. She must of gotten me confused with her and blamed everything on me. I hope her new beau finds out how evil she is. Her new beau buys her expensive clothes and necklaces and everything else so she is just using him for the gifts.

[Philosoraptor]

Did you hear the bullet whiz by your head?

 

She was not emotionally mature enough to have a conversation and lacked enough self knowledge to communicate. This is not your issue but hers and hers alone. Not only does she not know herself but she passed the blame in a true immature fashion.

 

Don't worry about her at all as someone emotionally immature is nothing but a ticking timebomb. Things will get better with time. Just work on making your own dreams come true.

[Randybrandt]

Thank you. The sad part is she is older so she should know alot better. I guess age doesn't make a difference when you are emotionally immature. I would be willing to bet she will put on this whole I am a good girl act for the next couple of months and make this guy think she is a princess but then the true colors will come out and he will see she isn't so nice. Today I saw a sign for the New Years party that were supposed to go to and I admit it did sting a bit and I felt down for a moment but then I realized all the evil things she did and it made me a little better. I will get better I know it:)