An admitted cheater, liar, flirt, and women addict

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And it could destroy my relationship with the love of my life.

 

I am a 28 year old man who is engaged to the 37 year old woman of my dreams. We met about 2.5 years ago. She was still married to her ex husband and even though we had a very magnetic physical attraction towards eachother the initial relationship was strictly platonic. This lasted the first three months of knowing eachother. She then filed for divorce, something she was going to do before she met me so she didn't leave him for me. So because of our platonic beginnings I continued to date and flirt with other girls.

 

I was about 5 months into being single after a 2 year relationship followed by a 9 month relationship. Both of which I had cheated on with the other. So being single and free I was in a feeding frenzy for attention from all types of women. I couldn't get enough attention and craved it badly.

 

After my fiancé left her ex we sorta dated but neither of us were ready to be committed to each other. Me more so than her. Shortly after that I met a girl that I fell hard for for reasons that still baffle me. I promised her the world, and she gave me hers. I basically acted as a father to her kids and she accepted my son. On the outside everything looked fabulous. But on the inside I could not let my current fiancé go. I craved her. I truly loved her and not the girl I was with. My fiancé was jealous I wasn't with her and we had an on off affair for my whole relationship with the other girl. Ultimately I crumbled under the stress and I left the girlfriend to be with the fiancé.

 

This, however wasn't the fairy tale I thought and I ended up leaving her again. And going back to the other girl. But I wasn't happy and I hated not having my fiancé. So I ended it with the other girl and went back.

 

Now that's just the story. Here is the problem

 

I have an addiction to women. Specifically I find attractive qualities in all women. My fiancé hates it. It has put so much stress on our relationship that we are on the brink of failure. We are going to therapy to determine why I flirt and chek out every woman I see and he wants to get over the insecurities I have caused.

 

Any thoughts? Please help!!!!