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9 Year Relationship - now i know why


nineyearsgone79

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nineyearsgone79

Hey Guys, Just had to write.. i've been doing much better than 2.5 years ago when my boyfriend and best friend of 9 years broke up with me in an email and disappeared forever. We had started dating at 21 in college. He never picked up the phone never wrote back. I wrote him for so long.. far to long.. i was so broken hearted. I'd write telling him i missed him and that i hoped he was doing well. I had no clue no idea it was coming. Up until a week before he was asking if i was coming to his sisters wedding. I was depressed for so long, couldn't eat, couldn't get out of bed. It was the most horrible experience of my life. It had felt as if he had died... to be gone so abruptly.

 

He said we couldn't be friends in that short 5 sentence letter because "it would be to hard" and he had told me not to write back because "it would only hurt more and that he would not write me back in return."

 

I eventually moved on and got into another relationship.. been pretty happy and we're off to Rome in May for a romantic trip.

 

We still have a mutual friend or two and i had heard he had started dating his sister in law. Anyway, the sister in law moved down in July 09 and he broke up with me August 25th 09. I recently found out they started dating and made it facebook official on October 09. Anyway I know it's water under the bridge.

 

Anyway to get to the point.. hearing that it started so soon after made me feel like a complete idiot! I was so sad for so long and he had just moved on so quickly?? Anyway, a month ago i sent him a brief email after years of no contact.. letting him know that i finally knew the real truth and that he took the cowards way out rather than just simply letting me know he had met someone else. BTW.. i didn't suspect anything at the time because i knew she had a boyfriend too and they were going to be family after all.

 

.. i know this is all old crap etc... but man o man i feel so stupid for letting this affect me for so long. I blamed myself.. questioning why did this happen.. what did i do.. was i a bad girlfriend .. a bad person?

 

How can you date someone for so long and love one another and do that to someone?

 

p.s. i felt really good venting out in the email.. thoughts i had held in my head for years that ate at me from time to time. n/c broken.. i know it was dumb .. didn't hear back didn't expect to.. never will of course.

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brokendreamz

What a wanker.

 

Helps to vent though huh?

 

Horrible that you had to go through all that, but hopefully you will be a stronger person for it X

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