CSU Posted March 2, 2012 Share Posted March 2, 2012 So when I was 18 I started talking to a guy who was older than me and we maintained a friendship til I was about 20. I felt a deep connection to him mainly because he came into my life when I needed someone just to be there for me and keep me sane because I was living somewhere I didn't want to be. Now when I was 20 we kinda lost that friendship mainly because I was young and doing stupid things. When I finally cleaned up my ways the first thing I wanted to do was to call him and tell him I'm sorry for dropping off the face of the earth and I got to at least tell him that but not that I had feelings for him and I was pretty sure I was I was falling for him but the problem was he had gotten a chick he was seeing for 2 weeks pregnant and he was going to marry her. He did marry her and they had a baby boy. The last time we talked was right before he was getting married and it wasn't one of those "this is the last time we'll talk" kind of talks. That was over 2 years ago and lately I've been having dreams about him and everything that I do reminds me of him. I've been trying for 2 years to move on from him but something stops me from doing so. I've been dating and talking to different people. Haven't had a relationship though since I was 18. I figured I really don't need a relationship because I'm only 22. Its just that when I was talking to this guy I was at my happiest. He made me happy. Its just hard because I want to move on and I'm trying to but no matter what I do or where I go I'm drawn towards this guy. The last time we talked he told me he had feelings for me and that he envied me because I was doing a lot of work with dancing, singing, and gymnastics but things fell in the right place with this girl and he didn't want to have a child out of wedlock. I'm starting to ramble and I'm on the verge of tears and I just don't know what to do. I want to write him so bad but i have no idea if his wife looks at his facebook. I've always told myself that if his marriage ends it won't because of me. It'll be because they realized they weren't for each other. I just needed to vent and need some kind of advice. Link to post Share on other sites
darkmoon Posted March 2, 2012 Share Posted March 2, 2012 what's the rest of your life like? keep off facebook, bit pointless let him come to you maybe, you never know what might happen in the future, but i'd concentrate on the areas of your life that you enjoy meantime, vent here instead please be aware that 22 year old gymnasts have more chances than many to get a guy i'd be proud as i am a wannabe belly-dancer wobbling and puffing and panting fifty-something Link to post Share on other sites
Author CSU Posted March 2, 2012 Author Share Posted March 2, 2012 As of right now I'm trying to get back in school I had to stop because I was involved in bad accident after I turn 21. I'm slowly getting back into dancing and all that but its mostly when i stop and think about everything that has happened to me recently I get the urge to write him. Idk... he was someone I vented to and since my accident its been hard and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. He was in a similar accident before we met so when my accident happened he was the first person that came to mind. I'm barely on facebook and I avoid his page at all cost. I actually try not to go on facebook because i get tempted. what's the rest of your life like? keep off facebook, bit pointless let him come to you maybe, you never know what might happen in the future, but i'd concentrate on the areas of your life that you enjoy meantime, vent here instead please be aware that 22 year old gymnasts have more chances than many to get a guy i'd be proud as i am a wannabe belly-dancer wobbling and puffing and panting fifty-something Link to post Share on other sites
darkmoon Posted March 2, 2012 Share Posted March 2, 2012 based on the way you are getting back to dancing and school, you have some goals, as in living for the future you have written "its mostly when i stop and think about everything" it could just be that you must cease the "stop and think" you could get a distraction in school and dancing which i know, imho, is about thinking of improvement based on single-mindedness and slog no easy answers for you but put the guy on the back-burner, i have to go out now, so unable to write back straightaway, other peeps might write here Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted March 2, 2012 Share Posted March 2, 2012 Don't bother with him; he is married. you don't want to get mixed up in that ****. Exercise helps a lot, no breakup music=listen to jazz/classical, stuff that does not remind you of him. If you can travel, do it and take group tours:) You have to be for you and healing is happening each day. Link to post Share on other sites
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