Who cares?

[beautifulearth83]

I feel like I've grown out of this life. Like people talk and things happen, but I've seen it before. It is what it is, who cares? I could do this or that, make these goals, make those goals, but why? Who gives a ****. It's just life... it doesn't really lead to anything, nobody is ever going to be happy forever. Why do anything? It doesn't matter. Nothing matters at all.

[HHC]

Everything matters because it dictates what kind of life you have.

[denise_xo]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. This sounds like text book depression. What are you doing to address your situation?

[woots31]

Things happen and other things change, we work towards goals because we have a want to reach them. We want things to change, need them to otherwise life becomes stale. We need to reach goals so we have something to look forward too, the next goal.

It is what it is sounds close to, there is a way things are and a way they should be and rarely do they meet.

What happens when the way things are is the way they should be, and someone else does not agree? It is life sometimes it goes the way you want, other times the way others want. But it is still life, the one that you have. Stop trying to find the find or fix the negative and LIVE

[beautifulearth83]

Wow, really great responses. As far as addressing depression, I've been taking herbal supplements which help keep me above water and have been making some lifestyle changes. When I posted this thread I was drinking, but it is not far from how a lot of my thinking has been going.

 

I've become very sensitive to this world and stuck in my head like a hermit. I don't feel connected to others like I used to, don't experience love as often and go to sleep with dreams and goals. I don't feel sad, and sometimes I feel happy. Unfortunately, it seems that often when I begin to get happy, there is somebody in the way or something that happens which causes it to tumble all down. And I'm talking about fundamental things, kid stuff.

 

For example, last week I entered work on Monday with all his love and life and passion in my heart. I was working in the kitchen, really got in the flow, and felt happy. Then, all it took was this girl I work with, to approach me with a closed heart, which I could sense very easily. She spoke to me in a fashion which was similar to how business people speak... empty, cold. She spoke to me as a superior, like I was dumb.

 

I feel I've lost the ability to accept love and return it without feeling some sort of loss to myself. I just don't understand this world sometimes and I'm having trouble seeing the big picture. Does this still sound like depression? Is it possible that I'm depressed and so far beneath my mind that I don't even know it? Does that mean I would need to go on pills? Therapy doesn't work so well for me.

 

My opinion is that lifestyle changes, self-discipline, doing things to make myself happy, staying productive, practicing good habit, etc. are my best bet for feeling whole again. It's unfortunate though that I feel like I need to fight for it.

 

If I'm in a workplace situation and there is somebody who sucks the life out of me, that I don't feel comfortable around, do I quit? Do I stand up for myself somehow? Tell the boss? Or do I just accept that it's normal to have a job and at least one person in your life that you'll always have to feel absolutely horrible about everything around. I just don't get it.

 

Sorry for such a lengthy post, but I have a lot to say these days. It is frustrating too, because I feel that it is probably the simplest solution. Or perhaps there isn't one. I have no idea.

[nick d]

Unfortunately this is how I have been feeling lately too :/