AnnikaKarina Posted June 8, 2004 Share Posted June 8, 2004 I don't understand why I feel so empty. I feel like the biggest loser. I'm untrue to myself and try to be someone i'm not just so that certain people will accept me. I feel like I've failed in the most basic way because I know I've been rude to others. I seem to be impatient, irritable & secretly detached from people although I present a pleasant personality. It's so strange because overall, I'm considered to be a kind and compassionate person but I've noticed that I just don't care anymore about things. I don't want anybody to need anything from me, even my attention to "chat" at work etc. I'm 36, single, no kids. Over the past few years it "appears" that I've really gotten my life together because I've lost weight and look wonderful, I appear focused and determined etc. but I'd rather DIE than to let people know how messed up I really am. I am a victim of genetics? I mean, how much power do we truly have over our brains/thought processes? Why are some people so happy and successful and others so unhappy & dysfunctional? Wouldn't most everybody CHOOSE to be successful & happy if they could? I just dread my daily life inspite of all my blessings and I don't know what to do. My brain makes me lead a dysfunctional lifestyle and I feel powerless to change it. Link to post Share on other sites
Author AnnikaKarina Posted June 8, 2004 Author Share Posted June 8, 2004 Oops. I may have posted in the wrong forum? I saw it said "coping" and assumed it meant mental coping LOL *sigh* Link to post Share on other sites
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