AnnikaKarina Posted June 8, 2004 Share Posted June 8, 2004 I don't understand why I feel so empty. I feel like the biggest loser. I'm untrue to myself and try to be someone i'm not/fake interests in certain subjects just so that certain people will accept me. I feel like I've failed in the most basic way because I know I've been rude to others and at times I just don't care about being friendly or chatty to strangers (like clerks etc) I seem to be impatient, irritable & secretly detached from people although I present a pleasant personality. It's so strange because overall, I'm considered to be a kind and compassionate person but I've noticed that I just don't care anymore about things. I don't want anybody to need anything from me, even my attention to "chat" at work etc. I'm 36, single, no kids. Over the past few years it "appears" that I've really gotten my life together because I've lost weight and look wonderful, I appear focused and determined etc. but I'd rather DIE than to let people know how messed up I really am. That my daily life includes throwing up? Am I a victim of genetics? I mean, how much power do we truly have over our brains/thought processes? Why are some people so happy and successful and others so unhappy & dysfunctional? Wouldn't most everybody CHOOSE to be successful & happy if they could? Link to post Share on other sites
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moimeme Posted June 9, 2004 Share Posted June 9, 2004 I mean, how much power do we truly have over our brains/thought processes? About as much as you do over your pancreas, heart, or liver. Despite the fact that the brain is the source of thoughts, it is still an organ like any other that is subject to ailments, injury, and dysfunction just like all other organs. You sound depressed. Depression, we now understand, is a chemical illness. Don't think 'weak' or 'nuts' when you think 'depression'. Rather think 'diabetes' or 'hypertension' because depression is just another sickness which is treatable and, in many cases, even curable. Don't continue to try to think yourself out of this. It's as futile as thinking yourself out of diabetes. Once your chemicals are straight, cognitive therapy may help. Some cognitive therapies have worked as well as meds but your doc can choose the right treatment for you. Link to post Share on other sites
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