kechara Posted June 11, 2004 Share Posted June 11, 2004 After A While (alternate title - Comes the Dawn) After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul... by Veronica A. Shoffstall Link to post Share on other sites
confusion Posted June 12, 2004 Share Posted June 12, 2004 I know you are right!! It still hurts BAD!! But with each little day I get a tiny bit better. Of course, like all of us I still hold out that tiny little stupid bit of hope that he will come to his senses and leave but I know that is all fantasy. I just miss the calls, etc. But I know there is someone out there for me who will treat me better. So I have decided that this weekend I am going to go out with a bunch of my friends and have a good time and just see what happens. I am not waiting around for him one bit!! (That gives me a little bit of power :) I even told him that I was going to do that! He just said be careful. But he didn't tell me not to go which is good. I know that I am definitely a good person who deserves a good man. What hurts that my MM decided to stay with an emotionally unstable person (she even told me that), just to keep his parents and everyone else happy. Basically to save face. So where does that put me -- I am definitely the stable better choice? Okay sorry just a little venting. I know I am going to be okay. Plus what would I really think of him if he didn't try this time to make it work? Terrible, I am sure. So I am trying to put one foot forward. Getting out I think will help me move on. Will I forget him anytime soon -- NO WAY, but I am trying to go on. I also want to say that I definitely not sorry for the time that we shared. He really did teach me how to love again. I hate the way it ended but I wouldn't take it all back. So thanks for being there. These really help to read. It helps and makes us all stronger. For those of you who think we are terrible people for even being the OW -- WE aren't. WE just got caught up in a complicated situation. Like I said before -- sometimes your head and heart don't work together. And even if you keep telling yourself how wrong this is sometimes your heart just keeps taking you in deeper and deeper. So if you haven't walked in my shoes don't judge me. Thanks Kechara for the replies. Again it really helps me knowing that someone else has been there before me and can give me a little bit of guidance too. So today is a good day for me. I am hoping that I can keep going in that direction. Link to post Share on other sites
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