am i being too paranoid?

[humanfly]

ok, before i get into the main issue i wanted to discuss, some background is warranted here, as usual. ive been with my girlfriend for over a year. we lived together for about five months and were engaged. one day out of the blue, she tells me while we're eating dinner that she's moving out. there were no warning signs of this. we hadn't had any talks about any issues that could have caused this decision on her part, she just up and decided to leave me. needless to say i was in a state of shock for some time. we had been having financial trouble because she had been fired from her job, but i had my job still and we were getting by. i was paying her bills and everything else of course, which i suppose bothered her because she felt that she wasn't contributing. but i continually reassured her that it was totally fine, this was only temporary, and i didn't mind one bit because i love her. i mean, she was my fiance for gods sake, we were family. so she moves out that very night, and i dont see or hear from her for a week. then one day she calls me and asks how im doing, and im polite as i can manage to be, but in my head im like, how the hell do you think im doing? we decide to meet, and when we do we have a long talk about what the issues were that caused her to leave. apparently i was too giving, i cared too much, i was smothering her, not giving her enough space, things like that. um, ok, well when youre unemployed and engaged to and living with somebody who is employed, what the hell do you expect? you cant take care of yourself, so that person naturally has to pick up the slack, right? what the hell was i supposed to do, let her starve? and not giving her enough space? she didnt have a job, didnt have any friends, and just stayed home all day waiting for me to come home, and when i would hang out with friends alone, she would get upset and act all passive aggressive. of course at the time i just missed her and wanted her back so much, so i didnt think of any of this and i just agreed to everything. she now lives with her parents, we see each other once or twice a week and only for a few hours, and we hardly ever keep in contact over the phone or iming or whatever. this didnt happen right away, but over the past 3 months shes slowly been distancing herself from me more and more, constantly accusing me of not giving her enough space. well, i guess she has her space now, right? i mean, basically she's pushed me out of her life almost completely, and she still says she loves me and that i'm her soul mate. she just doesn't want to spend any real time with me is all i guess. the thing is, she still asks me for money to pay her bills. this irks me to the core. what happened to me being too giving? caring too much? smothering her? oh but if its convenient for her and completely on her terms, than me being giving and caring is just fine, right? and she asks at the worst possible times. just the other day we were in my room about to make love for the first time in weeks, and just before we're about to get to it, she says she needs $100. wow. so basically its down to prostitution. needless to say the sex lacked passion. despite all this, i love this girl still, and its hard for me to say no to her. and she knows that. i think she might be playing me, but it hurts to think that way of her, because i thought i knew her so well and she was such a sweet and caring person before. granted she lives with her parents now and theyre kind of strict and shes in school now, but seriously, nobody is so busy that they can only give their significant other a paltry few hours a week. what do you guys think, is she playing me for a sucker, or am i being paranoid? i know the evidence for the former is overwhelming, but its just difficult for me to see through the fog of my emotions when it comes to her. my feelings for her are too deep. there's always an excuse for her behavior, and i keep buying it. thanks for reading.

[fltc]

I think she's playing you for a sucker, she's completely over you, you'll have to learn to live with it.