Follower Posted March 24, 2012 Share Posted March 24, 2012 So You broke No Contact? Did something your not happy with? Post here to clear your conscience. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Follower Posted March 24, 2012 Author Share Posted March 24, 2012 So last night i did something really stupid, Was really really upset during the night, tears the whole shibang, noone was answering there phone(all sleeping at the time). So i thought i would drive from my hometown to the city i used to live in which is some 3 hours away, drive was great made me feel elaited, got to the city and convinced myself that to make me feel better i had to see my ex. So went and bought some flowers, and drove to her parents where she now resides(Another 30 minutes away) Got to her house and sat in the car, started asking myself what the hell i was playing at and the fact it wouldnt make me feel any better if anything would make me feel worse. THis was about 7am in the morning(baring in mind i was up all night, im a night worker so this is normal for me. I finaly decide to call off the idea, so i get out the car and place the flowers on the bonet of her car turn round and do the 3 hour drive home. Feel like a tard for doing all that but meh, whats done is done, Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted March 24, 2012 Share Posted March 24, 2012 After weeks of fighting NC, I broke it. I was doing good for so long...NC for over 70 days. First I went to my ex's facebook page which I had not done in months. He was in a relationship, as he is almost always is...two at the same time when he is cheating. He severely damaged me and psychologically abused me. Yet he put on his facebook page he wouldn't change a thing about last year. I let him have it! I sent an email and I let him have it! I told that evil bombaclot that he deserved everything that he is getting. (He's very sick. I don't even know if he's going to live until next year). I said other mean things too. I've never been so mean and nasty to anyone, except. when it comes to him. I really let him have it. I'm back to normal now...I guess. I don't plan on initating contact with him ever again. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Gdunkman Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 When we broke up for the first time, I kept NC for 5 months and moved on, after some time we broke up for the second time and I kept it for another 2.5 months, then she contacted me with the general message "I love you, and want to be with you, but I won't do anything to do it, may be someday it will be time for us". We live on different continents, so it's not so easy to do something even if I wanted to, more than that she doesn't deserve another chance. Now I can't help myself, but break NC once in a few days or respond to her contacts, looks like it was much easier to keep NC when I knew she didn't want me in her life in any form. I act wrong, but I miss her. Link to post Share on other sites
ridinbikes247 Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 I left my wife right after valentines. She said her friends were more important at this point in her life. I was doing well and never looked at her facebook or creeped on her. Last night I got out of bed, drove to our old house around 11 p.m..... She was in the living room wacthing T.V and our 4 year boy was in his room. I wanted to ring the doorbell so bad but I know I need to be stronger. I guess she likes being single. I miss my family:( Link to post Share on other sites
Author Follower Posted March 25, 2012 Author Share Posted March 25, 2012 So my ex questioned me on the flowers, first time shes initiated contact in a while, shame its because of an action i took. i didnt give her an answer and just ignored, but today i felt compelled to explain myself, so i did over an email. Another slip in the NC/LC cycle. Link to post Share on other sites
cflowers32 Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 I left my wife right after valentines. She said her friends were more important at this point in her life. I was doing well and never looked at her facebook or creeped on her. Last night I got out of bed, drove to our old house around 11 p.m..... She was in the living room wacthing T.V and our 4 year boy was in his room. I wanted to ring the doorbell so bad but I know I need to be stronger. I guess she likes being single. I miss my family:( Your post made my heart sinker lower than it already has. I'm so sorry. Link to post Share on other sites
cflowers32 Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 So my ex questioned me on the flowers, first time shes initiated contact in a while, shame its because of an action i took. i didnt give her an answer and just ignored, but today i felt compelled to explain myself, so i did over an email. Another slip in the NC/LC cycle. To some extent, this NC is really crappy, it's a lie, and we know it, but for the most part, it is the right thing to do on both sides. It sucks that we're the ones that seem to be hurting the most. At the end of the day, you're only human and you hurt. I totally get it. Link to post Share on other sites
flyman Posted March 26, 2012 Share Posted March 26, 2012 Every single time NC is broken, I feel alright at first. Then, I ALWAYS regret breaking NC and ask myself how could I be so weak. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
cflowers32 Posted March 26, 2012 Share Posted March 26, 2012 Yep flyman, and then there's that too. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted March 26, 2012 Share Posted March 26, 2012 I have to go to the city my ex resides in tomorrow. I told myself I will not break NC. I feel pretty okay and pretty strong. I want to take care of my heart. My roommate (ex b/f) provides a safe place for my heart. He is taking care of me and nursing my heart back to health. We are just friends...best friends. He sits with me while I cry. My heart is safe with him and some other people in my life...as long as I stay away from my ex. I want to protect my heart. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Follower Posted March 28, 2012 Author Share Posted March 28, 2012 When we spoke last night i was beating round the bush im raging i let you speak to me, im raging i spoke back for it only to be a hi how you dealing elievate my guilt talk about how ****ty im feeling how my so called friends arent around. I know they arent i told you they were not real friends you never listened!!! Argh im so furious this is the first time iv been guenily angry at you yes angry since the break up hell in almost a year to be honest!!! The worst part im not allowed to tell you im not permitted to contact you to say how f*****g anoyed i am at you!!! Arrrrrgggghhhhh Hmm i feel kindsa better. Wish i lived in a house not a flat at least that way i could yell (yes men yell not scream) and ge tthis outa my system. Link to post Share on other sites
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