asiamarie Posted June 13, 2004 Share Posted June 13, 2004 Its been 3 years now since my Best Friend My Mother passed away and i am still slumped over it . My mother was my life she was so special to me and god had to take her away at age 59 which she was sickened with lung and bone cancer. I am glad the lord removed her from this place and gave her a new home but I miss her so much . I can't stop thinking about her all i do is cry. I am on medications now for the depression but its not helping and i pray every-night to make things go back to normal again. For 3 years now i would have dreams about my mother coming to visit me and just this past birthday i wished she could be here. Heres the funny part she was all day , I lay ed down to take a nap and in my dream i was sitting next to her bed and she woke up and looked at me and wished me Happy Birthday and gave me a hug and all i could do is cry in her arms and when i woke up i had this presence that she was around . My son got a toy sword for his birthday this year from a friend of mine and when you swing it around it makes this swooshing noise it has two buttons on the top you push to make it make some noise well it was sitting upright in my chair in the living-room and all day long when i would come downstairs it would make that noise until i left and when my oldest son came downstairs it would go crazy so i told him in a joking manner say hello to grandma my son looked at me kind-of funny and he did and it went stir crazy and then it all stopped a midnight ... So i say my mother was there. She told me in one dream that she needed to talk to the kids and this will be the last time i would see her so i gave her a necklace and wished her a merry Christmas and she said by..... I can't get over it because she died so young and i still had so much to give her. I just need help and try to move on..... Link to post Share on other sites
HokeyReligions Posted June 14, 2004 Share Posted June 14, 2004 http://www.beyondindigo.com Try this site. I found information and comfort there when I lost loved ones. I'm very sorry. All I can tell you is that you will find ways to deal with the grief and that it does get easier to bear after time, but you will always feel the loss. Link to post Share on other sites
Pookette Posted June 17, 2004 Share Posted June 17, 2004 My grandfather passed away in his sleep early yesterday morning. He was fighting liver cancer for a couple years and it finally got the best of him. He was the only grandpa I had and he was very special to me. I miss him so much right now. It is a blessing though, because he was in quite a lot of pain near the end. I know that and I realize it's for the best, but I just want my grandpa back. Link to post Share on other sites
sally1530 Posted June 17, 2004 Share Posted June 17, 2004 I lost my mother too last august, 3rd heat attack at age 58 and she was scheduled for triple bi-pass surgury that morning. She died at 4am. It was devisatating, but she was so ill that I think now she is in a better place. Even if she would have gotten the surgery , she would have lost her legs with poor circulation due to diabities... so I miss her ever day, and think of her fondly. I know shes watching over me. Its hard to lose a parent...its not like loosing a grapa or aunt or friend... its you mom... I know the pain your going through, but in time it will heal, she is there in your life everyday, remember she loves you and looking down watching your life as you live it and someday you will both meet again. Hope this helps... Link to post Share on other sites
Fayebelle Posted June 17, 2004 Share Posted June 17, 2004 I am truly sorry for your loss. Try to remember that a good mother wants nothing more than to take care of her children. You would not miss your mother so much unless she was one of the best. Cancer robs people of so much strenghth and comfort that she is actually free now to be a better mother. I believe heaven for your mother would be a place where she could continue to look in and support you. I'm not sure if your beliefs include thoughts of heaven but believe in your mother's spirit. She obviously had a kind one that would do anything to always watch over you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author asiamarie Posted June 17, 2004 Author Share Posted June 17, 2004 she did and thank you so much for that reply ..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author asiamarie Posted June 17, 2004 Author Share Posted June 17, 2004 Sorry to here about your grandpa Maybe everyone is right there in heaven now and they have no more pain and i do believe that they are watching over us. but sometimes you wish that they where still here in person . I do believe god has a purpose for our loved ones and it was time for our family to go and i do believe that someday you and i will meet them again but deep down inside of me their is so much anger and when i need her i can't see or speak with her . sure i could talk in my head to her but its not the same i need that person to hug to hold to talk to all of the time ..... I'm sure over time it will get better. My thoughts are with you and your family. to POOKETTE Link to post Share on other sites
Author asiamarie Posted June 17, 2004 Author Share Posted June 17, 2004 To sally1530 Thanks it helps to know i have something in common with other people in these threads. Sorry to here about your mother i know you know what I'm going through and i know its hard and I am sure it will get better over time but i miss her so. And I know you miss yours and both of us will see out mothers one day. Thanks for your thoughts Link to post Share on other sites
Pookette Posted June 17, 2004 Share Posted June 17, 2004 I'm sorry to read about both of your mothers. I know it must be different losing a parent. Thank you to asiamarie. He was one of the greatest people I have ever known and it will be hard to heal the void he left. But he's in heaven now -- a better place than where we are. Link to post Share on other sites
CurlyIam Posted June 17, 2004 Share Posted June 17, 2004 I cannot even imagine what you girls must be going through! My mom is definetely the MOST important person in my life! Wish I could find the words to say I'm truly sorry for your lost! Link to post Share on other sites
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