cflowers32 Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 I am not calling or contacting him, but I don't like this. I feel like I'm laying here with a ton of bricks on my chest. I feel totally numb and pained at the same time. He used to call me all day, and shoot me texts all the time, it was sweet, and now, nothing, nothing, nothing and I don't understand what happened? I don't know why? And I am still trying to understand the breaking up with someone you love? What am I not getting? What am I missing? I just am having a moment, and I just want to feel better. So sad. Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 What happened is he feels like he is superiot to you, which he is not, this is why he is not contacting you, he doesnt have the mutual respect right now and possibly never will again. Stand strong!! Clean your house/car, take the pet out for a bit, go have a little fun at a park, relax smile and realise everything will be alright. All easier said than done i know! DDMS-Dont Destroy My Smile 1 Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 you're not missing much if he doesn't care enough to do all those things again. I remember those wonderful good morning sunshine texts I used to get...and got used to and loved. Then it would taper off and I would end up having to call him/text him. it got weird. Any person who makes another feel this way...shame on them. Bake a cake and celebrate. Just celebrate YOU. You were fine before him, you will be fine again. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 25, 2012 Author Share Posted March 25, 2012 you're not missing much if he doesn't care enough to do all those things again. I remember those wonderful good morning sunshine texts I used to get...and got used to and loved. Then it would taper off and I would end up having to call him/text him. it got weird. Any person who makes another feel this way...shame on them. Bake a cake and celebrate. Just celebrate YOU. You were fine before him, you will be fine again. But BB, he did it up all the way through our relationship like clockwork, right up until we broke up, I just miss it. It was so very sweet that he never missed a beat with it for as long as we were together. As I have said in regards to him, he was a totally loving partner, I have reason to feel as sad as I do, and it is hard being strong. I just miss him really bad right now. Link to post Share on other sites
jennisfora Posted March 25, 2012 Share Posted March 25, 2012 i dont like it either. i just want to call him and have him answer and talk about life, and how much i miss him and wish he was here. so much i would love to say. but i know if i did, i would end up saying something like why did you do this to me, and i hate you, and i miss you and why cant you just come back and we can pretend this didnt happen, and he would probably say, im sorry, i dont like hurting you, but i cant do it right now. im sorry, and hang up, and then he wouldnt answer my texts or phone calls and think i was pyscho and have issues. so, yeah, not contacting him is for the best for both of us. this way he can remember me as the loving sweet gf, and not the unhinged pyscho. right now, i just can't communicate like a rational human being. i keep thinking that i can, and everytime, i can't. so, until i have no feelings whatsoever, i wont be able to. and then, i wont need to, so it will be okay. it will get easier. it has to, can't get much harder. *hugs* Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 25, 2012 Author Share Posted March 25, 2012 i dont like it either. i just want to call him and have him answer and talk about life, and how much i miss him and wish he was here. so much i would love to say. but i know if i did, i would end up saying something like why did you do this to me, and i hate you, and i miss you and why cant you just come back and we can pretend this didnt happen, and he would probably say, im sorry, i dont like hurting you, but i cant do it right now. im sorry, and hang up, and then he wouldnt answer my texts or phone calls and think i was pyscho and have issues. so, yeah, not contacting him is for the best for both of us. this way he can remember me as the loving sweet gf, and not the unhinged pyscho. right now, i just can't communicate like a rational human being. i keep thinking that i can, and everytime, i can't. so, until i have no feelings whatsoever, i wont be able to. and then, i wont need to, so it will be okay. it will get easier. it has to, can't get much harder. *hugs* Jenn, ditto, ditto, ditto... I know. Same story as yours pretty much. Thank you again for your support, THAT does help. Link to post Share on other sites
Purple7737 Posted March 27, 2012 Share Posted March 27, 2012 I can completely relate to your posting cflowers32. The worst at times is at night when I look at the time and realize we used to hang out or chat on skype around that time. He just threw it all away without a goodbye or anything. Staying busy has really, really helped me. I'm volunteering more, taking educational and workout classes. It doesn't completely heal me but it definitely ease a little of the pain. Hang in there. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 27, 2012 Author Share Posted March 27, 2012 Thanks Purple, and I have a feeling that I have quite a journey to go. I know this is just the beginning and I am processing and working on closure. After I get the preface finished, it is on to the final chapter. I am doing just that, I am staying as busy as I can. I've also started my "gentle" hounding on my property mngt. office to get our gym here up and running. I good hour or two in the gym would be awesome for me!! Totally help my self-esteem and confidence too. Getting there... Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted March 27, 2012 Share Posted March 27, 2012 Nights are never a problem for me. They used to be. But now I sleep with my large rag doll. It provides so much comfort to me....seriously, it helps tremendously. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Phanpooh Posted March 27, 2012 Share Posted March 27, 2012 For night, I learned lucid dream and try it to control my dream For day, I force myself to work, sometime there is some problem with bosses that make me stress, sometime I lost myself in tons of problem, but that nice, I dun have to think about her For free time, I pick my hobbie back on table, hang out with friend and enjoy my life, I hate it when somebody ask me about my gf... It's hard to said we were breakup... But I used to say that and then, she is just somebody i used to know... I dun need anyone for my life, I wish she won't comeback... But damn, I know someday she will, for good or bad.... When I miss her, I just come here, to share my feeling, my story, to help or take some advise from you guys... The most thing after she left, Im at LS! When I see a beautiful couple, I miss her When I talk with some girl, I know I'm not ready When Im full of self-respect, Im me!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 27, 2012 Author Share Posted March 27, 2012 For night, I learned lucid dream and try it to control my dream For day, I force myself to work, sometime there is some problem with bosses that make me stress, sometime I lost myself in tons of problem, but that nice, I dun have to think about her For free time, I pick my hobbie back on table, hang out with friend and enjoy my life, I hate it when somebody ask me about my gf... It's hard to said we were breakup... But I used to say that and then, she is just somebody i used to know... I dun need anyone for my life, I wish she won't comeback... But damn, I know someday she will, for good or bad.... When I miss her, I just come here, to share my feeling, my story, to help or take some advise from you guys... The most thing after she left, Im at LS! When I see a beautiful couple, I miss her When I talk with some girl, I know I'm not ready When Im full of self-respect, Im me!!! Phan, thank you so much for sharing that. You made me feel not so alone any more. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Phanpooh Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 u could call me pooh, and you r welcome ^^ 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 29, 2012 Author Share Posted March 29, 2012 Will do Pooh!! Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted March 29, 2012 Share Posted March 29, 2012 Hey cflowers32 Hope you made it to the gym? I am so sorry you are going through what you're going through. I can so relate to all youse guys that have posted. My former girlfriend and I were so close. I thought we fit together so well. I miss the way she'd answer the phone with "hey baby", the unexpected sweet texts, Monday night chats where we would talk for three or four hours about everything and anything. I miss sharing my life with her and supporting each other. I miss caring for her. I so miss her voice, her mind, her smell, her taste, the funny faces she made. It's been a month but I still feel broken and and so empty. All that being said... the reason we are hurting so bad is because we are deeply emotional people who have a great capacity for love. Some day some way, when we've moved on..... which we will damn it!!! Someone else will cherish and appreciate that! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author cflowers32 Posted March 29, 2012 Author Share Posted March 29, 2012 Hey cflowers32 Hope you made it to the gym? I am so sorry you are going through what you're going through. I can so relate to all youse guys that have posted. My former girlfriend and I were so close. I thought we fit together so well. I miss the way she'd answer the phone with "hey baby", the unexpected sweet texts, Monday night chats where we would talk for three or four hours about everything and anything. I miss sharing my life with her and supporting each other. I miss caring for her. I so miss her voice, her mind, her smell, her taste, the funny faces she made. It's been a month but I still feel broken and and so empty. All that being said... the reason we are hurting so bad is because we are deeply emotional people who have a great capacity for love. Some day some way, when we've moved on..... which we will damn it!!! Someone else will cherish and appreciate that! Gazoo, I love it, and you're right. It feels like too much love right now, and you sound like me in how you described your girlfriend, it is how I felt about my "little muffin", he was the best boy ever. Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted March 29, 2012 Share Posted March 29, 2012 Gazoo, I love it, and you're right. It feels like too much love right now, and you sound like me in how you described your girlfriend, it is how I felt about my "little muffin", he was the best boy ever. He was the best boy... until a better one comes along... which will happen. Link to post Share on other sites
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