Starnette83 Posted June 19, 2004 Share Posted June 19, 2004 well me and my bf of 3 years 1/2 broke up..we were eachothers first love-first sex, etc. anyways we broke up cuz things just weren't working out between us, he had stopped loving me since January 2004 when he said he couldnt say it to me anymore, cuz he didnt know if he loved me ...we broke up then but got back in a week..and it was cuz i initiated it..but this time there is not going to be any initiating by me, i miss him...alot! i think about him constantly and sometimes wish that he could love me, or maybe realize he does love me..or wants me around.. . but i dunno..hes so hard to predict..cuz hes a Gemini and he has double personality..soemtimes he treats me like im his one and only and all of a sudden he acts whatever..its just hard! on Monday it was his bday and we were still together and i bought him a nice watch that he been wanitng for a long time, i was happy to see that i had made him smile, and though no one did anything for his bday..i tried to make him happy that day and we hung out , ate out and had sweet sex..but now its over and it sux...i broke up with him cuz of what i said earlier, and he was fine with it, he agreed and told me that he had been honest with me about the love thing and that he only got back with me cuz i initiated it and it was hard saying no.. Anyways in 3 weeks its my 21st bday and im wondering if he will call me, yet im scared cuz even though part of me really wishes hed call, cuz it make me feel so good, im scared that i wont spend my 21st with him, something i was anticipating..it sux alot..yet i dunno if he calls, i dont think i wanna give him the benefit of picking up my cell...i dunno its weird..i dont even know what to do for my 21st for hes the only one i had in mind to do something with on that day...cuz i have no friends really:(...so maybe imma just take a train up to my sisters whcih is 4 hours away and spend it with her..dopnt know:( anyways this sux...i really love him and do u think he will realize what he lost?>? i mean i did alot for him, and he knows i love him alot..i just think that the only way he could ever realize it was if i finally cut it off..and cut the contact...cuz i really dont think he realizes what he has..or i dunno..ugh this is confusing... Link to post Share on other sites
KK'sLove Posted June 19, 2004 Share Posted June 19, 2004 Sorry to hear about your situation. I think that you did the right thing by ending it, listen, truthfully being in a relationship and still feeling very lonely is usually worse then just being by yourself. I don't know if he will ever come around, sometimes, absence does make the heart grow fonder and yes, all the men I have been in a relationship with have realized that they took advantage of me and that they are sorry and want me back. But the difference is that they never stopped loving me in the first place they just started treating me badly. So in your situation, I'm just not sure. What I can tell you is that you need to make some friends. I know this can be difficult but try to go out with people from college/work whoever you can right now. In relationships, the worst thing that we can do is loose all of our friends, we feel secure and only want to hang out with our man and it will burn us in the end. Make new friends, hold on to them and never loose friends again because of a man because good friends will always be there. Good luck to you! Link to post Share on other sites
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