help please people i need ur opinion , im soo hurt and i dont now what to do

[heart-broken_me]

hello room im a guy and im 25 years old i know how u all fell with ur ldr its a hard thing i had 2 for my own the first one didnt work for reson are not in are hand and the second one its getting ruff and i just cant take it anymore , let me break the story down for u . after my first ldr i thought i well take a break and dont get a in relashionship for sometime and refresh my mind so i was on yahoo one night chat room u know then i send an im to this girl she from paris and thats intersted my in the first place i talked to her that night for sometime and i went to sleep with nothing on my mind , the second day i also talked to her and we start to talk every night and thing got serisly with me felling so antel she went to spain for her cousin wedding and that night i didnt talk to her and i felt little bad and i got felling for her so she was the same and comed back home later from the wedding and send me a messge and we talk and when she got back to paris we talk and she sayed that she love me and she want to meet me i sayed ya sure i got felling for u too but i didnt say i love her , anyway she promise me the moon and everything i want to have in my life at that point , so i flow to france and we meet and it was the most beautiful time i got in my life time we speened a month together in her place and i got to meet all her freind and some fmilly , and when i was there just she was the sweetest person in the planet and she cryed a coupled of time when it was close for me to leave and come back home , so i got back home and then we still talk on phone like 5 to 6 times a day and meet on net at night for like hole six month before metting and like amonth and half after i come back home , and one day i called her she didnt anser me and i was smelling pork lol so i didnt called and i sayed let her call me back , she didnt anyway antel we got in touch like 3 days we didnt talk then we meet on net and she told me that im a really nice guy for her and meybe shes not hte right person for me , then i sayed think about it then we talked again on net and we still like before talk and talk and meet on net , so other night she come with this idea about trying a lesbian experince and i sayed ok i f u want u can but wait forme antel we get together so we talked about it and was no problem then one night on net she sayed let sleep and see etch other on cam i agreed and we did that and i called her the next morning woke her up for work and we talk the same day at night and she told me that when she told me that she wake up with starnge felling to me and she fell she love more than any other time and shes sorry for what she say about the lesbian experice and she dont want to do it , so we where good again and no problem antel like an other month she lost her internet connection and we didnt meet now for like amonth or so but we talk on the phone as i sayed , then like 4 night ago i called her and she dont answer and she turned off her phone and hang on my face , so i leaved a mess and toll her to call me so she did and we talked and i asked her if she was with some guy and thats why she turnd off the phone she sayed yes beauce i know its weired but we very honest about everyting we do and never lie even if it hurt , so i told her how is that guy and why she went with him and she answerd that hes an old freind she used to now and liked for like 5 years ago but they couldnt be together and now he come back and he work close where she work , so i sayed then what me and u and are relashionship she sayed give me time to think and so i did , FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE YEAR NOT I DONT HEAR HER VOICE FOR LIKE 3 DAYS NOW AND IT HURT ALOT BEAUCE I LOVE HER MORE THAN ENYTHING IN THE PLANET AND SHE NOW THAT , so like last night i sow that like meybe she got the internet connection back and she is on yahoo but mobile , i dont how if i should send her a small mess like 'i thinking about u ' or wait for her call or mess what u guys think ???, i know she really love me and i love her a lot just i cant take it anymore im depressed and on alcohol and pills its getting very hard for me and i need ur guys help please , sorry for the long mess but please tell me what i should do , thx alot and iw ish u guys the best in ur love life ,

[cinnamonstix49]

First of all, I know how much work LDRs require, they are not easy to maintain. I can relate to the pain of losing someone close to me from the Internet, and also to the loving feeling that they give. I am sorry to hear about what happened to you two... Please take care of yourself and don't do anything crazy, no girl is worth your pain... I think that you should message her something short, just to let her know that you didn't forget about her, maybe a "thinking about you" or "miss your voice" something short and nice... Best of luck to you, I hope everything works out.