Starnette83 Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 well today i would have hung out with him if we would still be together, ugh ...right now imma go to a club, but i am in no mood, my self esteem is down to a 0 and all i can think about is him...I miss him..and i really wish i could be with him today...this really sucks...i dont think its possible to forget about him cuz hes the only guy i wanna be with.... I just dont know..imma drink tonight..and im scared it might make me wanna just cry!!! I love him now, and forever...but i dont want to ..i want to forget cuz if i dont ill go crazy knowing he can never be mine again, and i can never be his again..this is torture!! Link to post Share on other sites
Caveman Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 I hear ya. Today is 2 months for me...not getting any easier. I went out last night for only the 2nd time since the breakup and I drank...just made it worse and now I'm hungover for my air-shift...brilliant! I might have to do EMDR again. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Starnette83 Posted June 22, 2004 Author Share Posted June 22, 2004 well today is 6th day no contact and yesterday i saw he is already looking for a new girl..for i found him in HOT ORNOT saying something like "I just got single and am lookng for a cute/sexy girl, no drama please!!!!!!!!!!"...ugh i began crying cuz i was so mad that i had hope he missed me and stuff and now i see that he just wants to trade me for someone else..its retarded..i dunno..today is 6th day and well all i can do now is take it day by day...will he ever regret this ****?? espeically after we dated for over 3 years and he knows i gave him all i could and that i DID love him..and not for anything but for HIM??? Link to post Share on other sites
KANSAN Posted June 22, 2004 Share Posted June 22, 2004 I'M SORRY TO HEAR YOUR PAIN. WHAT CAN YOU DO? NOTHING. I'M NOT TO GOOD WITH ADVICE I CAN ONLY TELL YOU WHAT I DO. LOVE HITS YOU LIKE A TYSON PUNCH SOMETIMES BUT YOU HAVE TO KEEP GETTING UP, FIGHT THROUGH THE PAIN AND HURT. IF YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOUR RELATIONSHIP MOVE ON KNOWING THAT YOU'VE GAVE YOUR ALL, YOU DON'T HAVE TO NESSASARLY START DATING BUT IT MIGHT MAKE IT EASIER, MABY JUST BE PAITICHENT AND LET SOME TIME PASS KNOWING THAT YOU'LL GO THROUGH A GRIEVING PROCESS AND AFTER THAT YOU'LL FELL BETTER. WHATEVER YOU DO DON'T GIVE UP ON KNOWING THAT YOU'LL BE OK AND ITS HIS LOSS. SHOWING HIM THAT YOU LOVE HIM ENOUGH TO LET HIM GO WILL HELP YOU GET PAST AND MIGHT HELP HIM REALIZE HIS MISTAKE BUT BY THEN YOU'LL BE IN CONTROL. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Starnette83 Posted June 22, 2004 Author Share Posted June 22, 2004 thanxz KANSAn, ya it pretty much sux but whatever...i know im better then that even though my stupid self still has feelings for him, and i wish hed realize it and stuff but whatever..it just sux cuz i really want to throw away, burn everything he gave me, cuz it makes me feel like everything was fake, unreal..and its not worth keeping..i dunno..should i? anyways i have some of his stuff..like his sweaters and cds and i put it all in a box, i want to go drop it off at him, but not see him, just leave it in front of his door and he will see it..should i? would it make him feel bad? or what? ugh!@!! dunnow hat to do no more..this DOES SUCK!! Link to post Share on other sites
KANSAN Posted June 22, 2004 Share Posted June 22, 2004 STARNETTE83, I DON'T KNOW IT REALLY DEPENDS ON HOW YOU FEEL. IN MY SITUATION I WAS PRETTY MAD ABOUT IT ALL AND I SAID SOME PRETTY MEAN THINGS IN GETTING OVER MY PAIN, I'M A LITTLE CALMER ABOUT IT NOW AND AM SIVEL TO HER FOR THE SAKE OF MY KID. IN ANSWER TO YOUR QUESTION I WOULD GIVE HIM BACK HIS STUFF POLITELY AND DO THE BEST NO CONTACT YOU CAN WITH A KID ONLY TALK TO HIM ABOUT THE CHILD BASICALLY LETTING HIM KNOW YOU'VE HURT ME, I WANTED TO STAY TOGETHER AND WORK THINGS OUT BUT YOU WANTED SOMETHING ELSE. I'LL BE WILLING TO BET YOU WOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM FINDING A MATE, DATE WHATEVER. HE SOUNDS SELFISH, PLEASE DON'T PUT YOURSELF THROUGH ANY MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING AND DO WHAT'S BEST FOR YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP Link to post Share on other sites
Author Starnette83 Posted June 23, 2004 Author Share Posted June 23, 2004 kid? i dont have kids with him, anyways umm he contacted me!! after 6 days of me not calling him or nothing, he bagan calling me but i kept not picking up until he left me a message and got me a lil concerned saying he had to tell me soemthing, so i called him and asked him normally.."i got ure message, what is that u need to tell me" and he just sais like though hes smiling cuz i called.."i just wanted to see how u were doing"..and then i said i was doing fine and then asked "is that all? as though i had to go"..and he said "no, also that i miss you"...and i just said "Oh, and said i was at the gym"...and we talked a lil bout that - not mroe then 2 min and i excused myself and said "well ill call u later, imma go back inside" and we said bye.. i wasnt at the gym, i just said that cuz i didnt know what to say, talkign to him felt awkward and i guess im being a lil more distant..if he cares about me..he needs to prove it now..did i do good? should i call him back?? or should i keep this uP???Umm whats next??? i do love him but he put me through alot..so i dont know anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
KANSAN Posted June 23, 2004 Share Posted June 23, 2004 YOU DID GREAT, SORRY ABOUT THE KID COMMENT I GUESS I'VE BEEN READING TOO MANY POSTS ON THE SHACK BUT IMO YOU DID GREAT AND KEEP IT UP AND BE STRONG. Link to post Share on other sites
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