LostPerson Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 I posted before about my story of my boyfriend coldly dumping me the night before he jumped on a plane to Jamaica.. I am not going to rehash the whole story here but it is Saturday night, almost 2 weeks have passed since the incident and I pulled together the best I could to get through that time, spent time with friends etc.. all was going well BUT..... Monday is the day that he returns from his trip. I am finding today that I am feeling heavy anxiety again, which I didn't feel the better part of this week. I feel like the distance of here to jamaica was a buffer that let me get through the time, but now that I know he is again going to be right here in a couple of days I am freaking. Almost like a new level of depression is setting in. I feel anxiety of what if I see him, what if he calls, what if he shows up, what if he doesn't call, what do I do if I see him out somewhere etc. Why is it that all of a sudden this town feels too small for the two of us? Is this normal to feel this way? Or am I making myself pyscho? I am just so hurt and depressed but for some reason his being removed from the area made it feel different? Probably all in my head but I am just really starting to feel sick to my stomach thinking in just two short days, we will again be just a few miles away from each other.. distance made it easier... Any advice on how to handle?? How to gain my sanity back? Link to post Share on other sites
jdubinva Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 When I read your post I could completely relate. My girlfriend moved out a few weeks ago and, while we had some contact, we weren't seeing each other. It was like me dragging the breakup out and her allowing it for whatever reason. She left for China 2 days ago to see her brother who's doing a college study program there. Anyway, now I feel this sense of relief that it's hard to understand (and probably not healthy). I know she can't be getting on with her life now for one thing, i.e. dating, going out etc - even though I'm pretty sure she's going to wait awhile to dive back into that. But knowing she's so far away makes it alot easier and I wonder how I'm going to react when she does come back. So, either we're both psycho or it's a natural reaction.. Best of luck to you! Link to post Share on other sites
AfriendAllie Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 It's ironic you brought this up. I have been waiting a while to touch on this. I myself had a MASSIVE anxiety attack last year at 19! Anxiety , Depression, I have been there and let me tell you I would not wish that on my worst enemy. All I can say is that if you are feeling all of this, it probably isn't a good idea to stay with this guy. I don't know him, he's probably a decent guy. But if you continue to stress out you may suffer a panic attack and trust me those are not fun. If you suffer one, it is best to breath through a bag or lie down with your legs on the air or on a bed or something and breath. If it gets worse, you should see psychiatric help. I wish you good luck..... Link to post Share on other sites
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