CurlyIam Posted June 20, 2004 Share Posted June 20, 2004 Something weird happened to meand I seem to be loosing a lot of sleep over it... I only have 2 best friends in the world. I care about them dearlyand we have spent most of the time in the University together. One of them is of, course, closer to me than the other. She studies Finance, I'm into MArketing. We both arevery ambitious, but that never stood in the way of our friendship. More, ar one time, I was volutneering for this NGO and the guys from Xerox gave me a call - they were searching for someone on Finance. I gave them her number, talked to her about it, and the next day she had the job. That happened like almost two and a half years ago. LAst year, we both decided wewanted some international experience. She wanted to go to England, I wanted to go to PAris, to Sorbonna.I got accepted, she got rejected and ended up in Toulouse. I was only too happy for her and for me, were visiting a lot, have been through the same experiences of changing the environment, etc. However, I could not ignore than whenever we met she needed to somehow show off in front of whomever were there here qualities, sometimes actually belittling me. I was too well educated to say something the first time, but then, the differance between us is quite visible - I happen to be cuter. So I didn't make not one comment about her ptting herself in a hot spot, for it she was doing a great job herself. Anyway, now we are on the process of getting a MAster. She applied for a scholaship and got it and will study to Switzerland next year. I am very glad for her, but she actually acted as if she was throwing it in my face. And what bothers me is not that she didn't tell me about the school in Switzerland - I am determined to remain in Paris, but the thing about the scholarship. It was for students from Eastern Europe and would have been a great help for me. The thing is I would have told her about that... She didn't tell me, though! And that's not all. She didn't tell me about it, but she told one of her other friends - they lived together back home, shared a flat. At first, it didn't quite bother me, I am confident in my own strenghts and I do know I'll be perfect, no matter how all this turns out. But it about money, meaning I will have to work or my parents will have to send me money. The more time passes by,the angrier I get at her... I think I shouldn't, she helped me when my ex and I broke up, has been many times supportive and a true friend... Am I asking too much of her? Right now I don't even feel like calling -her Bthday will be in July... I told her I was a bit upset with her for that in an email...she never had the nerve to answer it... Link to post Share on other sites
daisyg61 Posted June 21, 2004 Share Posted June 21, 2004 i think you don't need her so if she is like that with you you have to leave her someday she will need you. she is just full of envy Link to post Share on other sites
simplybrill Posted June 21, 2004 Share Posted June 21, 2004 It is a very sad thing when friends go behind your back and try to hold you back from success The best revenge is being successful wildly beyond her imagination, and THEN nothing she held back from you, or did not let you know about will matter. Keep working hard, doing the right thing for yourself, and pretty soon she will notice that the only person taking part in this silly competition is her. Link to post Share on other sites
Author CurlyIam Posted June 21, 2004 Author Share Posted June 21, 2004 I don't feel like proving anything to anyone. For the first time in my life, I am getting balance. I shall do the right thing for me and me alone. I just can't believe that she would be so unconsiderate as to not help - it is a killer working during the Master, I mean in France they will not only ask your average, but your rank when finishing school. IT's really tough. I will do it, I have no chance, but boy, this is big, you know? I mean this is a time when friends help and stand by together. Friends... I got sick to my stomach when reading her mail. The tone, the facts, the truth about her. I wish her well, she is going to a hell of a scholl and she worked very hard for it. But she does not know how to be happy, she never did, here or at home, and she is pushing the only true friends she has away. I am sick to my stomach... Link to post Share on other sites
simplybrill1 Posted June 28, 2004 Share Posted June 28, 2004 I know, it IS sickening when a friend who you trusted turns out to be a totally different person --- especially if you've known them for many years!! Take heart in knowing that at least YOU know how to be happy Link to post Share on other sites
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