MidNiteAgl Posted June 21, 2004 Share Posted June 21, 2004 Please do not turn this into a bashing party. Because I do know what I am doing is completely wrong. I just need help on how to get over this and move on. And I would gladly welcome any and all advise. I am 25 years old and married. I have been married for 5 years. Around November of last year husband was arrested for some fines that he didn't pay. Well, the bail bonds man was really nice help me and mom get him out. Mom was really flirty with him. He is a very attractive man. He is 32 years old. Well after I signed the bond he said that it would take a while for him to get out and he would take him home. Well, Hubby got home later that night and was telling me that the bonds man said that my hubby better be good to me that he thought I was a sweet beautiful lady. I just blew it off. Well, me and the bonds man stayed in contact after this. Finding weird reasons to call each other. By the way the bonds man is married too. Then one day he tells me that he is a male stripper and I didn't believe him. On and on until one day he said that he would give me a show. I told him ok because I still didn't believe him. So, I had it where my mom would be there too. Any I cancelled on him a few times. Then finally I decided what the heck I will just have to see. So, he gave me and my mom a show. And he did prove me wrong. We continued talking becoming even closer as friends. Well, a month later he told me that he would like to give me a private show. I decided what the heck, I really wanted to see him again anyway. Well, this time he kissed me and nothing else happened. We keep seeing each other a little more and more. And we keep getting closer and closer. And now I can't get this man off my mind. We talk all the time. I feel myself falling in love with him. I have him on my mind constantly. I know it is wrong I cry about this constantly. I am not so stupid to think that we will be together. Because I know we never will. I just can't keep from falling for him. And I need some advice on how to walk away. Because in my heart I feel like I need this man. Link to post Share on other sites
HokeyReligions Posted June 21, 2004 Share Posted June 21, 2004 Get a divorce. You don't love your husband. You don't have any respect for him (or yourself---how anyone can knowingly go into an affair and have any self-respect I don't know) and work on your self-esteem. If you want to see the bondsman, tell him to get a divorce too, and then you will date him. Have some self-control, it's not to late for that. Link to post Share on other sites
Butterfly_Queen Posted June 21, 2004 Share Posted June 21, 2004 You see something in the MM that you don't in your relationship with your husband. Even if you were to leave your H, don't be so sure that the MM would leave his wife. I think you need to sit down and discuss anything that may be going on in your relationship with your H and try to resolve it. That is if its what you want to do. Alot of times we see other quailties in people that our spouses may not have, but that's ok its human nature. Doesn't mean you have to act on it. If you want things to work out with your H though you're gonna have to cut all ties to the other MM. Its all up to what you really want. Maybe you could talk to a counselor to see what they can offer for you to do. I'm sure this has ben difficult for you. Best of luck. Link to post Share on other sites
Author MidNiteAgl Posted June 22, 2004 Author Share Posted June 22, 2004 I feel completely horrible right now. My husband's friend called him last night needing to bailed out of jail. Husband decided to call MM that I have been seeing. Then H wanted to know why I still had this bondman's number in my phone. That why did I continue to talk to him when it had been so long since his ordeal. I told him that yes I did talk to him but he was my friend. He wanted to know why when MM called back about the bond amount why would MM only talk to me. Well, he got started and finish telling me how that when MM brought him home that night that MM also told him that if he ever had the chance with someone like me he would take me in a second. He thinks that MM wants to be with me. He told me that he wanted me to stop talking to him. And I seen all the hurt in his eyes. And I can't do this to him anymore. So, I thought I would stop calling him and see what happens. But here I go again sitting here wanting to talk to MM so bad. I am more confused than I have ever been. Link to post Share on other sites
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