Hey!

[Sw3etdev1L]

I am getting married..

And its the strangest feeling.

Sometimes I feel so happy, and chillin´.

Sometimes I feel such in a bad mood, and sad.

Sometimes I just go with the flow.

Sometimes I feel stressed out, and tense, and anxious.

Sometimes I'm just layed back.

Sometimese I fear the committment.

Sometimes I feel at ease enjoying a day to day.

Sometimes I wonder if I am making a great choice or what.

Usually I know its the greatest choice of my life.

Usually I love making the preparations and stuff.

Sometimes I get overwhelmed with the preparations.

Sometimes I get frustrated.

Somehow I know everything is fine, and it will keep on being that way.

Sometimes it's too much.

Usually I know I love him.

Sometimes I wonder if it is love what I am talking about.

Sometimes I just love him the way he is.

Sometimes I become overanalytic and try to search for his flaws, and become a little neurotic about the future..

Usually, I am pleased with my decision.

Usually I am happy.

Sometimes I miss my mom who died three years ago and wish she was in my wedding.

Sometimese I feel sorry for my dad. because he is 60 and I still live with him, and I know its gonna be hard on him and my sister.

Usually I know this is life, and it is the way it is.

I know I have to make my own path.

Sometiemes I am confused, that I don't know who to invite. The friend who is not my friend anymore but who used to be great friends with me.

I don't know. Sometimes I am clueless, and lay there looking at the panorama, trying to me numb.

I already have my list, the dress, my house, and everything.

My parents were divorced, I hated their relationship. I though it was the worst one. Psycoanalisis in reference to the repeating of patterns is so scary.

sometimes I am scared

Usually I am in peace

sometimes I am excited

It's an emotional rollercoaster. I hate it, sometimes I just wanna be done with the ceremony, and that's it.

People start congratulating you, asking you about the process, which I love... Sometimes The process becomes, too much.

Nobody as a woman tells you, you will feel so many things at the same time, they say is all happiness, and that's it.. but it is not true. It's a mixtue of feelings.

I am sick since I started dating my bf, I was unsure t get involved with him, because there were things I didn't like about him, or his environment, and he changed jobs. But I stuck there, because I thought he was a great person. Now I am here in these process which is so emotional demanding.

[ladyabstrused]

Hey there, I'm sorry about all those negative feelings you're having. I'm sorry that your mother couldn't be there on your wedding day. I do understand how women can have a whole mixture of feelings and emotions all at once. It's something.

 

But I wish you luck and all the best in your marriage and a good life ahead together with your soon-to-be husband. Be happy for the things that you have and keep a positive mindset, it really helps a lot.

 

I admit I'm excited for you though! I wonder how my day would be like. I hope yours will be amazing.