Author fishman3226 Posted July 12, 2004 Author Share Posted July 12, 2004 I met my ex tonight for dinner and it went great. I am trying very hard not to feel confident about us getting back together. We held each other and she told me that she misses the way I looked after her. She also is going to think about me and her getting some couple counselling to try and resolve what has happened. If it happens it happens, if not... well... I tried. She asked about my family and what has been going on with them and brought up a few things about what she did wrong in the relationship and I told her what I think I stuffed up on. We reminisced about the past and shared some laughs. Only problem was when I said that I would like to kiss her if I could - she was really worried that I would - man - I am soooo in love with this girl it hurts. I have to let her lay now so to speak and see what develops. All I tried to do was be the same person I was before and to be completely honest with her. I pointed out that her online profile reminded me of me when I read it. She also said about me and her going to South Africa and meeting up - we are both of the same heritage. She is getting help for depression (and seems much improved - I said I wanted so much to be there for her) and she told me that she is not trying to find anyone new at the moment (which is hugely encouraging.) I told her also that I doubt a friendship would work because I still love her and I could not be around her if I felt these feelings - it would be too painful. I feel kind of bad because I was trying to get a resolution for the relationship in a way but if anything it appears things may be coming around - I actually have someone else in the picture and if the ex wants me back then I dont know what I will do - I dont want to stuff things up with her at all but I dont want to actively hold huge hope so I wont be as disappointed if she changes her mind again. Man, I feel kind of wierd here - like somewhat vindicated I suppose in a way for being right, but also wanting to contact her in a way. I know I should wait and see. I told her as well that I am home by myself each day in the morning if she wants to visit. I suppose in a way it shows the no contact rule does work. Link to post Share on other sites
Author fishman3226 Posted July 13, 2004 Author Share Posted July 13, 2004 I also told my girlfriend about what is happening and asked to have some space to sort this out. She is really hurt about it, and I can understand why. Link to post Share on other sites
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