flash back, too weird, leaving me creepy feeling here.

[mandy may]

when i was llittle my mom use to go to bars which seemed quite frequently to me. when i was pre-teen and early teens she seemed to go quite a bit then too. her and my oldest sister use to go out alot!

anyways, i hated it when she went out because it meant having to have my sisters watch me since i was two years younger then them. of course they ditched me anyways and i soon learned to entertain myself with my friends and cigs, wine and beer and older, much older men!

 

so i got to a point around 13 or so that when she went she would give us money, and i had allthis freedom. so i really took advantage of it but still alittle girl inside, i wanted my mom home but was dammed if i would admit that.

 

so today my boyfriend was getting out of the shower when my friend and me came home to my house, and i went in to tell him that we were there and to close the door for him. then he asked me to go into the other room and get his black dress pants, black shirt and a belt.

 

i did so oblingingly, and when i was coming from the other bedroom with this clothes i had the weirdest flash back of those times when my mom got dressed up to go out!!

this was such a shock that i did not knw how to deal with it. i just kept walking and talking then handed him his stuff and left the room. now i've had this on my mind all day!

 

it makes me wonder if i see him as some sort of a figure from my past, mom, maybe or what? any one who can psychoanalysis would be a saint, lol.

i'm still troubled by those feelings just popping out of no where, too weird even for my analysis paralysis'd brain!

[ladyangel]

Ask your shrink, ziggy.

[mandy may]

ziggy is a comic strip. a short little man in a comic strip, so please do not refer to me as ziggy, i am mandy, thank you very much, and i have no shrink. i'm sorry you have me confused with someone else here.

[FolderWife]

:lol: Junk like that happens to me all the time. Sometimes I will fade from living thinking about something, and wake up 10 minutes later. Sometimes when driving, and turning a curve or something, I'll have a flash of what would've happened had I not been paying attention, and I actually see through my eyes me driving over a bank, and crashing into a tree, and everything going black, then I like, shake, and I'm suddenly awake about a mile down the road.

 

Flashbacks, and flashforwards happen to me all the time. Maybe something triggered a memory. Sometimes, walking into a room and smelling something will take me back.

 

Just appreciate your imagination giving you something to ponder on, and don't read too much into it.

[ladyangel]

Originally posted by mandy may

ziggy is a comic strip. a short little man in a comic strip, so please do not refer to me as ziggy, i am mandy, thank you very much, and i have no shrink. i'm sorry you have me confused with someone else here.

Oops! Sorry, my mistake...zingy.