sunnie23 Posted July 5, 2004 Share Posted July 5, 2004 Hi everyone... Well. I've managed to go from having absolutely no relationship drama to being completely confused in a matter of a day. I've been happily single for seven months now. Last week I travelled out of town on business. My ex (and first love) lives in the suburb, so we quickly made plans. After breaking up two years ago, We've semi-kept in touch, with a light email every month or so. We met at my hotel and went to a local bar. He didn't drink, as he was driving. Me, on the other hand, well to beat my nervousness I drank heavily. When we got out, he started making strange comments about us...."I don't think we ever danced at a bar..." "I haven't dated anyone longer than a month since you..." "you are still the most beautiful girl i've ever dated..." I reminded him that it was him who broke up with me, to which he replied "No one ever said i was smart." It was only a matter of minutes before we were kissing...hugging...mostly just hugging (I was pretty freaked out) We ended up back in my hotel room...and started fooling around, which led to, well, you know. After, we just lay there...He was staring at me, telling me how much he missed my eyes, if i remembered our first date, etc. He was teasing me as well, we were playing around...I told him to stop, and he said...you should know why i'm doing it. (when we were together, he'd tease me and when I'd bitvch he'd say, I only do it because I love you...) At this point, my roomate was calling the room because she wanted in. She asked who i was in the room with, and i replied, 'my friend'.....to which he commented "your friend, eh?" I made a joke about it only being a one night thing and he said, "well actually, thats what I was hoping for." I walked him out, and he wouldn;t stop kissing me. It felt absolutely amazing. But now i'm completely confused. We've been emailing every day...short emails that don't really say much. I'm not sure what to make of any of this.... Your imput is greatly appreciated. Link to post Share on other sites
Author sunnie23 Posted July 5, 2004 Author Share Posted July 5, 2004 Just wanted to add... our reasons for breaking up....he wanted to go to europe (he's been now twice) and I wanted to go to university (just finished) but he also made a comment about me annoying him that has always stuck with me. Link to post Share on other sites
Author sunnie23 Posted July 5, 2004 Author Share Posted July 5, 2004 If anyone has any input i'd really appreciate it... Link to post Share on other sites
FolderWife Posted July 5, 2004 Share Posted July 5, 2004 I don't have a clue. It almost sounds like he's being a jerk, and using you for sex. On the other hand, you said it was a one night thing, and he could've agreed with you to save face. Why don't you just ASK him if he'd be interested in getting back together? Who cares what we think, you know him better than me. Are you too prideful to ask him to take you back, or are you too afraid that he'll ditch you again? Personally, I believe that once you break up, don't get back together, because there was a reason that you broke up in the first place. What do YOU think? What do YOU want to do? Link to post Share on other sites
Author sunnie23 Posted July 5, 2004 Author Share Posted July 5, 2004 I am very much too afraid to make the first move... Ever since that night we've exchanged meaningless emails about absolutely nothing. What do I want? The guy was my first love. I want to live happily ever after. You are right about the whole breaking up thing...although because we've been broken up for two years, well I guess it seems different. And yes, I do know him. I know that he get's scared very easily, and that he doesn't bull****. He's one of the most honest people I've ever met. I hate the idea that someone I once cared so deeply for would lower himself to talk **** to get laid. Although I suppose stranger things have happened. Link to post Share on other sites
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