nairy Posted July 23, 2012 Share Posted July 23, 2012 Hi everyone, this is the first time I have taken to the internet to talk about my emotional well being (perhaps that is a bit OTT) so do bear with me on this one. It seems so self indulgent doing this but here goes... I have been with my man for 4 and a half months now. He is 13 years older than me and we fell in love very quickly, to the point the L word was being uttered within a week of knowing one another. I don't band that word around and he is the first person I have said it to. I am in love with him, I desire him and he ticks all the boxes I need ticked! *So our relationship is unconventional. We see each other one day a week but are unable to spends nights together. Understandably, intimate time is severely compromised and, due to the infancy of our relationship, it's causing problems. This is only until September when*he is free of his obligation which he had before he met me (and it's not a wife or gf ) So he is a driven man and has introduced me to a new sport, one he excels in. I have taken to this sport and so most of our free time is spent doing that..which I love but .I have been getting 'frustrated' as we are not *spending quality time together. I have also voiced these concerns to him, he says he is being patient and there are only 6 weeks until we are free to spend time together properly.* Our relationship is complex, I can be moody and standoffish as I feel like we are allowing other things to obstruct what is really important. I often feel a bit sad, I long for some private time with him (the sport we do has other people around, a lot.) I am quite a strong person usually but he has broken down every barrier I ever had up. That scares me in itself! He can be curt, bossy and tactless at times but I don't doubt he loves me. I am getting to the stage where I feel uneasy, I question whether the physical attraction for him is there although he says it is completely. Our relationship is not 100% tactile, we do at times but it's certainly not gushy. *I am at the mercy of love, sorry I had to vent this and enjoy writing immensely. I feel so vulnerable, almost weak.? Is this really what love does to us?! Thanks for allowing me to vent, needed to! Link to post Share on other sites
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