Like Nothing Happened - Ckckckck

[LovelyLaura]

Urrrggh, im so sick of him.

 

I got back to the head quarter 2 weeks ago.

Everything is smooth.

xMM works in different department, in different location, but still in the same city. So i rarely see him around.

 

He still tried to make a contact. Sent me text once in couple days, begging for my love, but guess what, without any hesitation i just deleted the text right away.

I have nothing to do with him anymore. Im over him, and never in my life again, i would get involve with him. Im free

 

So today surprisingly he came to our department, he had a meeting with one of my coworker. I didnt know about that. I just knew when my coworker casually said that she would have an hour long meeting with xMM.

 

And i felt like someone punched me in stomach. I dont know why.

I just dont want to meet him. I dont want to see his face.

Dont get me wrong. Im totally over him, but this feeling of repulsion is too much too handle. Disgust at him, disgust at the fact that this old bald fat man had banged me, omg, im sooo mad at myself.

Why did i let myself do that stupid thing?

That's a pretty ****ty hole to be falling down to..

 

So i decided to just stay in my office room to avoid him.

When the lunch time came, i went to a restaurant far away from my office with my coworkers.

Actually, we have a restaurant inside our office building that has a great 50% discount if we show our ID, and this is my favorite place for lunch (great taste, classy decor, oh come on, who you lie to, it because its cheap, hahaha)

And xMM knows that i go to lunch there everyday.

 

So i got this text from him.

"Where are you? Why didnt you eat at XXX? Im in your department today"

Reply to him "Im eating out" (i know, i know, i shouldnt reply, but i think its kinda impolite not to answer a direct question like that, he is the boss' son right? dont want to do anything crazy to upset him. so i just keep the response bright and simple)

 

And i just cant believe his reply, i closed my eyes, opened it again, and the text is still the same..

"ow i see.. why didnt you invite me? hmm, doesnt seem like my ussual girl ;)"

 

WTF, can you believe this ****? OMG, i just couldnt control my cynical laugh while typing this.

He acted like nothing ever happened.

For God's sake, how come he acted like that..

 

Dont worry, i have no intention to follow his game.

I just ignore the last text, but still couldnt believe my eye.

He seems so pathetic, still try his luck to fish, god..

 

I cant believe i ever so devoted to this kind of man..

Edited July 27, 2012 by LovelyLaura

[sleepie]

I cant believe i ever so devoted to this kind of man..

 

That's the best way to look at it.

 

I always find it interesting the way we see our exes after the rose colored glasses have been removed. I mean, all people have warts, you know? But it's almost as if their warts have become amplified. Maybe it's just a different set of glasses we're wearing.

[Owl]

Have you TOLD him that it's over, and to stop contacting you?

[Artie Lang]

sounds like more drama, Laura.

 

cut that sh*t out. make it clear to him that he is not welcomed in your life anymore!

[whichwayisup]

"ow i see.. why didnt you invite me? hmm, doesnt seem like my ussual girl

 

He's playing you. He knows exactly why you're distancing yourself from him. He's not an idiot, he is trying to push your buttons so you'll react and cave. He is looking for his ego feed. "my usual girl." Ha! What a dorkhead he is..

 

You're not over him but you're close. If you were totally over him none of what he said would bug you, nor would your body react physically (lurching in your stomach) etc..

 

Anyway, just keep doing what you're doing. Remember, you owe him NOTHING. Absolutely nothing..Don't feel bad or guilty about how you feel or how you're handling this! I think you're doing great!!

[MissBee]

Yepp...some people like to press the reset button and act like nothing happened, and hope that you fall for it and act like nothing happened too and that everything is okay.

 

U didn't need to be polite...it was none of his business where you went to lunch and you answering probably gave him more reason to respond with that bullcrap about "not his usual girl"

 

Yeaa he's a piece of work frankly. He knows you don't speak anymore and knows why but wants to behave as if it is all good. Please return to completely IGNORING him, no matter what foolishness he comes up with to text you about.

[Happyface]

He know how to push your buttons for sure..."not my usual girl".

 

4 little words packed with special meaning for you. It implies that he knows you very well indeed. It also implies that still feels entitled to be familiar with you, instead of being professional.

 

What a self entitled clown!!!!! Get rid of him Laura.

 

Happy face.

[LovelyLaura]

That's the best way to look at it.

 

I always find it interesting the way we see our exes after the rose colored glasses have been removed. I mean, all people have warts, you know? But it's almost as if their warts have become amplified. Maybe it's just a different set of glasses we're wearing.

 

Yes sleepie, now when the fog is gone, i feel like i want to bang my head to the wall. Not being suicidal ofcourse, i just cant believe that i fall into that stupid old game.

 

Why in this world i want to get involve with 40something yo bald fat man is the 1 million dollar question for me now.

Yes, **** happens. But not this kind of ****.

 

And this one will be my greatest regret of all time, but then i've learnt a lot about myself. So i guess, i will just take the good out of this.

 

Have you TOLD him that it's over, and to stop contacting you?

 

Oh Owl, i made it crystal clear that its over and request him to not contact me in personal basis.

Since we are coworker, so total NC is not possible.

I told him to keep the contact in professional term only.

At first, he obeyed this. But then, he started to bombard me with his lovey dovey text that i completely ignored.

 

Up until yesterday when he texted me.

I replied because i thought that maybe he had something to talk to about our work. But then, what a hell..

Usual girl? Oh, just shoot me..

[LovelyLaura]

sounds like more drama, Laura.

 

cut that sh*t out. make it clear to him that he is not welcomed in your life anymore!

 

He's playing you. He knows exactly why you're distancing yourself from him. He's not an idiot, he is trying to push your buttons so you'll react and cave. He is looking for his ego feed. "my usual girl." Ha! What a dorkhead he is..

 

You're not over him but you're close. If you were totally over him none of what he said would bug you, nor would your body react physically (lurching in your stomach) etc..

 

Anyway, just keep doing what you're doing. Remember, you owe him NOTHING. Absolutely nothing..Don't feel bad or guilty about how you feel or how you're handling this! I think you're doing great!!

 

Yepp...some people like to press the reset button and act like nothing happened, and hope that you fall for it and act like nothing happened too and that everything is okay.

 

U didn't need to be polite...it was none of his business where you went to lunch and you answering probably gave him more reason to respond with that bullcrap about "not his usual girl"

 

Yeaa he's a piece of work frankly. He knows you don't speak anymore and knows why but wants to behave as if it is all good. Please return to completely IGNORING him, no matter what foolishness he comes up with to text you about.

 

He know how to push your buttons for sure..."not my usual girl".

 

4 little words packed with special meaning for you. It implies that he knows you very well indeed. It also implies that still feels entitled to be familiar with you, instead of being professional.

 

What a self entitled clown!!!!! Get rid of him Laura.

 

Happy face.

 

 

 

Oh thx God, im so glad that you all feel the same.

 

Usual girl my ass. I just cant believe that he could do something low like that. Like Miss Bee said, push the reset button and everything is good all over again. Oh please

 

And for completing this messy drama, one of my coworker told me that xMM went to my office room, and when he couldnt found me there, he asked my next room coworker, where i went?

 

God, he sure has the nerve.

 

Me here, constantly trying to avoid and ignoring him, because i cant stand the thought that i've spent many hours in the arm of this fat man, and he with his cherry big smile, wants to see me? For God's sake, what was he thinking?

 

Is this a normal reaction come from xMM?

I hate to know that many xMM out there will come this low and wouldnt respect our space and dignity..

[Owl]

 

 

Oh Owl, i made it crystal clear that its over and request him to not contact me in personal basis.

Since we are coworker, so total NC is not possible.

I told him to keep the contact in professional term only.

At first, he obeyed this. But then, he started to bombard me with his lovey dovey text that i completely ignored.

 

Up until yesterday when he texted me.

I replied because i thought that maybe he had something to talk to about our work. But then, what a hell..

Usual girl? Oh, just shoot me..

 

Here's my thought.

 

You established a boundary...which he ignored. Now...you ENFORCE that boundary.

 

If he crosses the line again...inform him point blank, face to face that he's violated a boundary...and if he does it again, there will be repercussions.

 

If he breaks it after that...have something in place. Personally...I say go tell his wife. But...that's me.

 

But a boundary without consequences is WORSE than useless...it makes you look weak.