New Beginnings or an old flame?

[jgreen5033]

So my story is complicated.

 

Going into my freshman year i had this boyfriend Jack and we were together all throughout high school, went to prom together everything. Once i got to school things changed. My school being two hours away we did the long distance relationship for a while. During this time I realized that Jack was not treating me the way I deserved to be treated. There was a lot of fighting, and Jack refused to call me or talk to me via skype, so all of the fights and major conversations were over texting. During the fighting my friend Eric was always there for me, and was that nice boy i never went for in high school. Being at college i began to have feelings for him, but i still wanted to make it work with Jack, Jack was my frist love. At the end of my first semester, once I got home I broke up with Jack. My reasoning for breaking up with him was because of the fighting and i felt Eric was going to be better for me. I was so angry and upset that when i was home for winter break I began dating Eric.

And about a month or two later we were in a relationship, which i still am now.

 

Fast forward to now, I have completed my first year of college and I am home for the summer returning to my job where Jack still works. it was awkward at first, but we decided to be civil and be friends. Being friends led to texting every once and a while. Being home opened a whole emotional wound I was not ready for. After all this time Jack still wants me back, which was another thing i am not ready for. Some feelings came back, but I cannot see myself leaving Eric. On paper Eric is everything i ever wanted, the big family, the life goals, going to college, and I can talk to him about everything. Jack is still working at the fast food restaurant I worked at when I was in high school, and is not attending college, or making effort to do so. I don't understand why I feel the way I do. Is it that i need closure? or am i worried that I will never love/care for eric the way i did for jack? I have talked to most of my friends about this and they think im crazy if i consider leaving Eric, because they all love him. If anyone has any advice or suggestions I would highly appreciate it.

 

thanks a bunch