Author winstonsdreams Posted August 23, 2012 Author Share Posted August 23, 2012 Bought my acoustic guitar last night, i suck haha! I am trying so hard to move on from this, i know i can do it. She is so happy without me, why can't i be happy? I still can't sleep at night. I really do have to fully heal before i start dating again, i really don't want to go into another relationship with this kind of baggage. I can't believe i have given up on fighting for her, at least i will be maintaining some dignity. ***k i wish i never saw her sister last week, i just want to be over her already. Hopefully the weekend will bring some relief. Link to post Share on other sites
Author winstonsdreams Posted August 26, 2012 Author Share Posted August 26, 2012 Struggling to give up hope, still thinking of doing something. One last romantic gesture, might think about it over the next few days, i tried telling my friends i wanted to leave it and move on and they think i should give it at least one last shot. I love her still the feeling has not faded, i can't just leave it forever, if you love someone you have to fight for them, NC sucks! Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 you dumped her. you blocked her. She moved on. let her go. Link to post Share on other sites
Author winstonsdreams Posted August 27, 2012 Author Share Posted August 27, 2012 Harsh but true, again i have come back down to earth, i won't be doing anything, i will allow her to move on and find happiness. NC is the only answer, funny how a dumper can turn into the dumpee so suddenly. I have really been able to analyze what went wrong in the relationship and see how we could have made it work. Lessons for next time, always room for improvement in your life. Therapy Thursday phew! Been a tough couple of weeks. Link to post Share on other sites
Tree_Salmon Posted August 27, 2012 Share Posted August 27, 2012 Honestly Tree that doesn't help at all, read the thread, that is not the case. I decided to deactivate all my social networking sites, i need to break free from everything. I know it is going to be hard but i am going to stay committed to NC. I can't keep putting myself through this, i wish i never saw her sister Friday night, but i won't be making any grand gestures i have to maintain some dignity here. Don't know how i am going to live without Facebook haha. Oh well I find every day i gain a little strength, i really need to focus on myself and keep improving, i am making so much progress. I'll keep you posted friends. I've read the thread. I've done the same thing also. She came back to me later on but nothing had really changed. So I remembered why I left in the first place. Stop moving backwards. Link to post Share on other sites
Author winstonsdreams Posted August 27, 2012 Author Share Posted August 27, 2012 I am honestly trying my best, if she was to come back we could make it work, but that isn't going to happen. But that doesn't mean i can just flick a switch and not care anymore, i still can't sleep at night and think about her all the time. I wish this would end! Link to post Share on other sites
Author winstonsdreams Posted August 30, 2012 Author Share Posted August 30, 2012 4 weeks today NC, 4 weeks since i sent my closure email. The improvement has been dramatic, therapy has been so helpful. I cannot recommend it highly enough. Today we really looked into my issue with exgirlfriends moving on and why i have such a hard time taking it, really finding out a lot about myself. Unfortunately i had to confess to the rebound relationship i got myself into the past couple of weeks that turned out to be a DISASTER. But this is all about a journey of self improvement, i am doing the best i can to improve and become a better person. Unfortunately with my ex girlfriend i have been ordered to strictly remain in NC forever. For my own healing but growth as a person. I have always been able to maintain a relationship with ex girlfriends on my terms, now i have to learn to lose someone on someone else's terms. We can't always have it our way. I ruined the relationship now i have to deal with the consequences. My therapist was very supportive in the reasons why i ended it, but agrees that communication is vital to a successful relationship therefore in the future i will be able to voice concerns and work on issues before ending things altogether. I hope in a few more weeks i am fully healed, i don't know if the ex cares about me still or not, it really isn't my business anymore, i hope she is happy. One day i will be completely over this. Then this thread might actually disappear Link to post Share on other sites
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