I dont know .

[MaDDN3ss]

Okay, So my situation is very similar to a few i have read in this forum, obviously not exactly the same. I don't care how weak and pathetic i sound. I have been seeing this girl on and off for about 6 years, I am pretty confident some of you know how it is when it comes to a girl you can honestly say you love. I am at an impasse that I can not seem to get my head wrapped around. I am going to give some back ground here. I love this girl unconditionally. She constantly assures me that she loves me and wants to be with me too, she even told her family that i am the guy she will marry one day. She was 15 when we first split up, we were going out for 9 months and she kissed another guy, i snapped and dumped her. We slowed communication down tons, and 3 years later i decided to give her another shot Now that we both have grown up a lot i thought it might be different. And it was, it honestly really was, it was amazing for a good solid 6 months, we got a place together and were very content. Until, i couldn't find a job in this crappy town. She had 2 jobs while i was living off of welfare. I will admit i did not do everything i could but its not like i didn't try. She posted her resume online to get her jobs, i busted my ass and got nothing. I felt like this wasn't fair, and she had enough of my broke ass and moved out. We settled our differences and got another place again, this time with a room mate, This guy caused so many problems with his lack of help around the place it got hard for us to stand, and because we were so close we took it out on eachother, she broke up with me again, and moved provinces away. She had her fun, realized that no one cares for her like i do. And came back to try and pick up whatever pieces we have left. It is going okay, i still have feelings just as strong as ever for this girl. She is my perfect 10. She assures me she loves me and wants to be with me. I am 22 and she is 20. Now my issue here that i cant get past, is she has a friend online, who lives across the world. She says she cant lie to me and tells me she likes this guy, and cams with him quit frequent. It is hard for us to talk about this stuff due to her immaturity, and constant flipping my words. She has a way to make everything my fault. Its part of her charm. But i am extremely jealous of this. I hate feeling like this. I asked her if he came to see her would she give it a shot with them. She tells me no, that she loves me and only likes him, but she would always wonder what would have happened. These thoughts of her are killing me inside. Do i have a right to be jealous. What can i do in this situation. I really don't want to make her delete a friend out of her life, but at the same time these feelings i get of jealousy are so over powering i want to end everything. We have been through so much that i wont type out because its just to much. Is there any advise you people have to help me. Should i look past this and let her have her fun? Maybe this pain will subside. I am just so torn. I am a very jealous person. Please, any advise will greatly be appreciated. Also, she is one of those girls that only have guy friends. This drives me insane too, because sometimes she spends the night out, and me being a guy, and knowing the guy she is "best friends" with really likes her. Has told her, and she assures me that she has no feelings for him, and not to worry. She is still friends with her ex's. I am just wondering if its possible for a girl like this to just have guy friends. Like when we were "just friends" we were not just friends... I can't help but feel like its not only me she is like this with. I honestly don't know what to think. What do you guys think?

[Darren Steez]

You're an idiot and a doormat, that is part of your charm, so you deserve everything you get! She loves you but only likes him and would wonder what would happen? And she cams him while you're there? She's your perfect 10, what you got to worry about You deserve her

[MaDDN3ss]

You have a very confusing opening to your reply, then you ended with positive re-enforcement. I appreciate the honestly, and no, she does not cam with him around me, she is usually alone when on cam. But she is honest about it to my knowledge. I hope you are right and i have nothing to worry about. I am going to play it out and see where she takes this. Any other advise or opinions would be great.