Day 3 of no contact

[ellllllarose]

The last time we spoke was when I found out he had cheated. When he screamed in my face, and walked away. I sat on his step and cried into the phone not even audible words to my mom, I was crying so hard. He had walked back up but I just picked up my keys and got in my car. I sat there and cried for a bit while still on the phone, but before I drove away I looked over for a millisecond and he was standing against the wall looking really upset. I don't know why, probably because his big secret is out. I still wake up and fall asleep thinking about him, I thought I'd be at least a little okay in three days. But I'm not.

 

He hasn't been on Facebook at all so he hasn't been in his home. His last status said "setting out soon" which was on the night all this bull**** went down. I don't know what it means. I hate that I don't know what he's up to or if he's upset or remorseful. He's not allowed in his house after ten pm if he's not home by then and he's not allowed in the house if his parents aren't home. They took his key two weeks ago for having a girl over without their permission. Since then, he's barely been home. Sleeping at who know's who's house. I just don't know what to do anymore. It still hurts. He's not sorry. And I keep having bad dreams that he cheated with a friend of mine. I don't even know what to do. I know he's texting a million other girls. Like he always did.

 

EDIT: he got his key taken away before earlier in the year... do you think he did this before?

Edited August 16, 2012 by ellllllarose

[veggirl]

First of all, good job on the 3 days. Keep it up.

 

Second of all, DELETE AND BLOCK ON FACEBOOK.

 

You will not heal if you are still tracking his moves. Don't even give yourself the opportunity to look at this profile. Who cares where he is sleeping...that is not your concern anymore. You need to worry about yourself. Don't worry if he is texting other girls, they will be his next victims, that's very sad. Be happy it will never be you again.

 

I'm sorry you are so upset, I understand it is hard but you really need to focus on yourself, and that means having no contact with him (not even via FB).

[venusianx13]

Don't check up on him. Block, delete, and move forward. I know it's hard, but every time you pull up his profile, it stirs up your emotions and memories; it pulls at your heart strings. I understand that it's hard to stop (it's like an addiction). I've been there. You really need to make a promise to yourself and keep it. I promise you, the urge to check up on him will dissipate over time, and you will begin to heal much more rapidly than you thought possible.