I broke it off. Now I miss him like crazy.

[neveragain2493]

My boyfriend and I dated for 2 and a half years. I broke up with him a month ago because when we were together, I was always very sad (my mom died this year, and I've been dealing with depression). I wasn't sure how I felt about him, and I didn't feel much for him at the time we broke up, so I told him I still wanted to be friends one day, and one day, it could work out, but now, it wouldn't. He was upset but understood.

I texted him a few weeks later at a vulnerable point. I expressed that I felt like he didn't care about me after all I gave to him, and he replied with "that pretty much sums it up." He said he did care, but not now. I told him I wanted to be friends and eventually get closer again, and he said "maybe, but I doubt it." I knew he was putting up a front, and it hurt.

Last week, I came by his parents' to get my things. His mom and I both broke into tears, and she told me that she had wanted us to get married, but she knew that she couldn't interfere and wanted us to be happy. She told me to give him time, that he'd realize what he was missing. I told her that if he showed me he could treat me right, I'd let him, but I was leaving that ball in his park.

If this makes sense, my best friend's roommate is the girlfriend of my ex's last roommate. His old roommate was telling me about how they were texting, and my ex said, "Well, we broke up, and she doesn't talk to me anymore, so.."

 

Ever since I went to his house, I cannot stop thinking about his family or him. I'm reminiscing on the good times we had, our jokes, etc. I don't feel like I could ever have that with another person. Right now, he's working an hour away, but he'll come back to college in December, and his apartment is going to be right across from mine. We had bad times, yes, but we loved each other. I want so badly to text him, and I feel like he's going to be a jerk because of his ego, but I can't get him off of my mind. I know it's a normal stage of a breakup, but it doesn't feel like it's going away. When we first broke up, I didn't think of him at all, but after seeing his family, it's changed everything. What do I do?

[youngnlove89]

Funny how we don't realize what we have until it's gone. When you made that decision to break up with him, you took a chance at him realizing he could do better once you are gone. He might have realized that now. He lost the trust.

 

When my ex broke up with me and we got back together once he realized what he lost, it wasn't the same. I lived in constant fear of him breaking up with me again that I wasn't able to fully let myself back in the relationship. And guess what, he broke up with me again! When you break up with someone that is a big deal. You are evaluating their worth and saying I could do better elsewhere. It's not easy on the other person. It ruins the love that they thought you had for them.