ticktock Posted September 3, 2012 Share Posted September 3, 2012 So, I've lost the only woman I've truly loved it seems. She was definitely second to no-one in her honesty, loyalty and seeing through my b.s. but here's the story: One morning, we had a row, a big row. In fact we'd been rowing a lot. Anyway, I called her a bitch. She then slapped me hard as she could in the face while I was naked in bed. OK, this isn't cool and I stormed out thinking that it was over, it had to be. Anyway, throughout the day, I noticed that she'd shown no remorse and even sent me a message saying I deserved the slap. So, by evening I thought that I didn't want to end this with her and phoned her back fishing for her repent. It never came other than a small sorry. She then said that we're finished. I then spent the next 30 minutes begging for HER to take ME back even though I was the one hit but she refused and so I packed my bags, got on a train and went home. I then self-destructed and ended up in another woman's bed. The next day, we got back together. I told her I shared a bed with this woman but nothing happened. Well, the guilty riddled me for weeks and yesterday I just came clean and told her that we fooled around. She's left me as even though we weren't techncially together, it's disloyal and shows my deceipt. I can't see a way back. She's done and I feel devastated that I've lost who could have been my love for life over some reckless behaviour that I can't take back. Link to post Share on other sites
Madman81 Posted September 4, 2012 Share Posted September 4, 2012 You were broken up ("it's over", you begged her to try again, she refused), so there was no cheating here. Having said that, if you two were to reconcile, she'd probably hold that over your head for years, insist that you DID cheat, and try to get you to agree with her and admit that you did. Cheating or not, sleeping with another woman within 24 hours of the breakup probably killed any chances for reconciliation. Sorry to say, but I think you should accept the end of the relationship, allow yourself to grieve over it, and move on. Link to post Share on other sites
Author ticktock Posted September 4, 2012 Author Share Posted September 4, 2012 well...i took door no. 3 and put myself in an even worse situation..i told her that we just fumbled and she's forgiven me and taken me back... so now i get worst of both worlds: the guilt of not being totall honest with her and her mistrust and pain for me doing this. great. Link to post Share on other sites
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