At a Loss...

[Priincessa]

I am having the hardest time dealing with my life right now let me start off by saying i am 27 years old i have a son whom is turning 4 this year and for the past 5 years i have been on and off with my sons father...let me start by saying when we met it was online he lives 3 hours from me and only after a month i became pregnant definitely not planned. Everything was half way fine lots of ups and downs during the pregnancy found out when i was 4 months pregnant he was cheating forgave him stayed with him and keep in mind at the time we met he was 19 and i just turned 23 so we were both young especially him. Well while i was at the hospital being induced he had gone back to my house to freshen up and found a CD with pictures on it which were of my self half nude and from my previous life when i was escorting since then the trust went out the window well for me i still had a hard time believing him because of me him previously cheating.

Very long story short i am still very much in love with him i have not cheated on him through all the years he thinks I have and still does not trust me. we recently saw each other and he was honest with me and says he stills loves me but is not in love with me which of course hurts but i am desperate as to wat i should do there have been soo many things that have gone on over the years and for me for some strange reason i am still very much in love with him and wen i see him i still feel the same feeling of butterflies in my stomach as i first did wen we first met.

To add to this in Feb this year for my birthday he bought me a ring took me to the church steps and proposed so i don't know what to do he has still not moved us with him we are not together at the moment but talk every day on the phone and say we love u before we hang up i need advice as to what i should move on or try to hold to a fantasy of a happy little family and the hope that he will move us with him???:(

 

What I have done so far?

I have let him know how much i am in love with him and i gave him an ultimatum that he does not move us there around tax time im getting my own place where i live with my son and forgetting my dreams and fantasy's of us getting married and living together.