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[530438]

I have no clue what to do, My life feels like its spiraling out of control, my grades are falling, and I can't go to my parents. We are moving and I want to tell my friends but I'm not allowed to. I have finally found my place in some gig I'm good at but am about to have it ripped away from me. All I think about during the day is goi to bed, to just black out and hope when I wake up everything will just be different. I have almost no confidence in myself and always feel like someone is constantly on my back. I have no where else to go to. Please help me.

[BloomManifesto]

Hey 530438, that sounds pretty dismal, but I can tell you from personal experience that it's not insurmountable.

 

These aren't things to stumble on and not get up, there things to rise above and conquer. I'm not just telling you this from some outside stand point either.

 

A few years back I had to move away from my home to attend university. It sounds like it should have been an exciting day for me. It wasn't.

 

I had to leave my full time job, and I couldn't take my car with me either. I was moving to a city where I didn't know anyone, and had no way of leaving once I got there. I could only take with me what would fit in the car and I was about four years older than everyone I was living with in my new dorm. I was even older than the student proctors who were in charge of the dorm.

 

When I first got there all I did was trudge to class and sleep all the time. But reality was always waiting for me when I woke up. It wasn't a great time for me, but I got help and I got better.

 

Now, I am so glad I moved, it has been one of the greatest experiences in my life to be in a different city and meet new people. It's hard to see these big changes as something positive, but they can be. Don't be afraid to get help and tell people how you feel.

 

Good luck, you can get through this.