friendship triangle... I have a crush on one of them

[Backster82]

am 6 months broken up with my ex of 6 years.

 

Since the breakup I have spent a lot of time hanging out with my best friend, who also happens to be a guy.

 

This friend confessed he liked me a year into our friendship (that was 8 years ago he confessed it) and he didn't talk to me for a year when I told him I liked him just as a friend.

 

We are now best friends again and I would like to think he see's me as a sister like I see him as a brother. he would visit me and my ex and stay for a night to hang out with us. I talk to him about my ex and stuff.... he has moved on I would hope. But something tells me deep down if I were to tell him I liked him he would be with me in a heart beat. I really try and stay as friendly terms with him as possible.

 

When we hang out, we hang out with another one of his friends. It is always the 3 of us, and I have started becoming close to that guy. We text alot, we work at the same place but I don't see him anymore. But I talk to him more than my best friend lately (best friend works alot of hours, me and other guy are opposite his schedule)

 

lately I have noticed myself getting jealous when guy talks about a girl that likes him. I get excited when I see he texts me... I get excited to see him when I know I am going to be hanging out with him. I think about him alot.

 

I just recently found out my ex was cheating on me while we were together, and I talked to guy about it. telling him my feelings on the situation and he was a good listener and talked it out with me. and we seem to just get along well.

 

I am about 99% sure he likes me.... we were talking last night and I mentioned I liked a guy I was dropping hints but he was not getting it (it was the guy I was talking to!) and he joked "is it me" I wasn't ready to admit it so I said no and he wrote "oh now you are breaknig my heart!" so I know he is interested.

 

after that I ended the convo cuz I was going to bed. I haven't talked to him since. I think he knows I like him but I just don't want to ruin anything between two guys.

 

I am afraid my best guy friend is going to get mad if me and other guy were to start dating. my guy friend makes comments that lead me to believe he is secretly jealous of other guy sometimes in regards to girls "how does he get girlfriends and I dont?" and "he has gotta be the most boring boyfriend ever. what do girls see in him and not me?"

 

I think guy is funny, nice, sweet, handsome, treats me nice, has been a good listener... I am just really scared to jump into something and end up making my friend mad

 

but some people say who cares what friend thinks, he is not my boyfriend and he does not control me?

 

if things were to develope with me and guy, I would never make best friend uncomfortable. I would keep things like how they are. I am not one for PDA I would never act girlfriendish to the guy in front of friend so I would hope he would realize things would not change too much.... even though they obviously will. I mean I was fine with my ex around him it was all cool.

 

I guess maybe another part of me is I am scared to get hurt again by someone. I have not dated in 7 years so this is all new to me

 

I would take it very slow with this guy, but I feel like I'd have to keep it secret from people til I knew what it really was.

 

and my friend might feel deceived but does he really need to know my business?

 

any advice would be great. thanks