denial phase... kind of

[dugs]

Alright, so I havn't talked to my EX in like 2 weeks and we've been broken up for like almost 2 months.

 

I think I am having some kind of denial problem though. Everyday I think that the longer I don't talk to her the better it will be when I do talk to her. Get what i'm saying here. Its like I feel like if I don't talk to her for like a month and we have time apart she might realize how much she cared about me and want to work things out with me.......yeah right. I know that I am living in a fantasy world and this will probably not happen, but I'm still prayin for a miracle. Maybe this is just another step to recovery though. At least I've made that first step of not calling her and talking to her. This no contact thing is hard but I actually do feel like I shouldn't talk to her right now, which is good right?

 

Anyone else out there have stupid fantasies about their silver king or queens coming home one day?

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Dugs, Dugs, Dugs.......If I did'nt know better, I would think I wrote those exact words. You guys are divorced?? I assume so or is it your Ex girl friend? Or did I totally miss a post?? wouldnt doubt it...hehe...

 

If I am being totally ignorant forgive me. I do that sometimes. Yes, as a matter a fact I too had or have the same type of wild still in love (why? hell I have tons of reasons to hate her) In hopes that she will realize what an idiot she was for leaving me, for some punk 10 years the younger...... Dude, if I would have gotten my shtuff together, in the beginning of her affair, left her alone, started working full time, gained some self confidence and not let her control my life by her actions, I would have had a shot. Instead I lived my life letting my emotions be ran over and over and it has caused me some of the most miserable time I have had in my life.

 

It is hard to do the no contact thing, especially when your wife having the affair doesnt file for divorce and I still wanted to work it out. I took her not filing meant there was a chance. Well finally she filed but it is still in the works. Yes, I get let down all the time, i realize that she is really gone more and more each day. Its a rough road, but let me tell ya, your doing the right thing. Don't let her know you still care, just go about your daily life as if she wasnt ever in it. Make progress, this is where I failed. But in hindsight I can see that it would have been the best thing in the world. I don't know how old you are or how long you were together but, show her you can do it without her and maybe she will realize what she lost was a great man. Just some advice I wish I would have lived by. Good luck and believe me there is nothing wrong with having a lot of hope, without it we would be no where.