My greatfriend; let me know kay?

[L0vinY0uu]

Here's some details about me and my great friend.

some part will be a mix up because I don't know where to start from..

 

I've been friends with him for quite long time, since preteen 7-8 or even 9 years ago. Throughout those years, I have asked him out but he refused me saying some smack talk, I stuck around... He did go out with other girls, even my cousin who met once and then dated her for 2weeks. which got me jealous back then, now I'm okay with it, girls he talks too.. tells me a few girls like him. But these past couple months he told me that, I'm the only whose stuck around lots, he feels closes too, and when he says "I want you" i think the sexual way lol.. horny guy..jk.

We do make out, whenever I get a chance to visit. He plays video games, and that's the only thing he thinks of, he has a job, still lives with his parents, slowly doing what he wants, its the first time I've ever heard him say some goals. Last month I took his v-card, our first time doing it together, nothing has changed since then, still the same old us.

We call each other names, we're mean to each other when online chatting, but in-person we nice lol..but sometimes i go over board on him. Maybe he thinks to much on his insecurities, a few times he says "why?" "ur life seems perfect" something like that, when i was cuddling with him, and I thought to myself. he mentioned he's traumatized by his brother&bro's gf arguing(fighting over beer) but I don't really drink, and so does he. I even told him my life isn't perfect, and nobodies perfect.

I really haven't got myself to ask him questions like how he see's me, oh yeah, like last month my cousin was trying so hard to get through his head about me saying in different words or using other girls.., he just shut her down lol..her telling me "ugh..he so hard headed!" I knew he do that. Same night, he said those words to her, he mentioned "she's my great friend" made me sad..only great friend..aww

I think i'm to the point to give up on our relationship(i don't know what kinda relationship we have), Oh! I asked him like last weekend "I wonder how it be if we were going out, daaw lol did i just say that? It be normal though, cuz its how we know each other long" his reply was like "true" and that was it...

I really need to ask him Q's, and when I get my answers, if its a "no" then ima just gonna give up and move on, but I will be his friend.

Sometimes when I think of him, I say "why him!!! I love him and hate him but more LOVE!" lmao! xD what do you think??? I'm talking to YOU whose reading ME!