I love my husband but i am not in love with him

[vipeach25]

I don't know where to begin. I have known my husband for 10 years and have been married for 2. Prior to our marriage I have had to put up with him cheating on me. He has 2 other kids from a prior relationship and I have had to deal with the baby momma drama also. We have 1 child together. We recently relocated to another state and his 2 kids have came to live with us. My husband has taken a job as a over the road truck driver and i am here with his 2 kids and our son. Over the past couple of years i have not been feeling for him the way a wife should feel for her husband.

 

I also know that my husband still calls females that he has had relationships with in the past because i see the calls on his cell phone. I have a strong female that he is still involved with at least one of them but i don't have any concrete proof. I have started to develop feelings for a guy who is almost like family to me. He is going thru some problems in his marriage because his wife has been cheating on him. He is a very nice person and is very committed to his children and i admire him for that. When i am around him i get goosebumps all over. I find myself thinking about him all the time. My husband has been out on the road for 3 weeks and I am barely missing him. I feel like I am stuck here with these kids who don't appreciate the sacrifices i am making for them. I have been paying for them to go to summer camp all summer because my husband just started this job and he hasnt had any income since april. I am so confused i don't know what to do. I have been surpressing my feelings in order to do what is best for my son and not look like a bad person to my family. I constantly find myself thinking about other people. I don't know what to do. I don't have a friend that i can trust that i can talk to and get my feelings out. I appreciate any views

[Olivia_19742004]

Have you told your husband how you feel?