Mike_d Posted September 28, 2012 Share Posted September 28, 2012 woke up this morning in a dead sweat, bed all thrashed to hell like a prize fight had occurred. was having a conversation with the ex over dinner, very similar to the last dinner we had together, and she was telling me again how much she loved me, but that she wasn't *in* love with me. but it was like I was tied to the chair, wanted to go was unable to move/leave, and the conversation kept on while I remember thinking "omg get me out of here". woke up with a gasp, took me a second to get my bearings. the-worst. but grateful for the day and new chances in life in front of me. Link to post Share on other sites
Tree_Salmon Posted September 28, 2012 Share Posted September 28, 2012 woke up this morning in a dead sweat, bed all thrashed to hell like a prize fight had occurred. was having a conversation with the ex over dinner, very similar to the last dinner we had together, and she was telling me again how much she loved me, but that she wasn't *in* love with me. but it was like I was tied to the chair, wanted to go was unable to move/leave, and the conversation kept on while I remember thinking "omg get me out of here". woke up with a gasp, took me a second to get my bearings. the-worst. but grateful for the day and new chances in life in front of me. They come in waves for me. But use them and don't let them get to. It's just your brain trying to make sense of the pain. Link to post Share on other sites
Blastoplast Posted September 28, 2012 Share Posted September 28, 2012 Finding a new girl will quickly change your dreams from nightmares to fantasies Link to post Share on other sites
Author Mike_d Posted September 28, 2012 Author Share Posted September 28, 2012 Finding a new girl will quickly change your dreams from nightmares to fantasies right now that would be a recipe for disaster, but I do have someone that I enjoy hanging out with that I'm brutally honest with so I have as much, if not more, than I can handle at the moment. She is a great girl, all the things I wish my ex would have been open to doing, but I accept that she wasn't which is why I moved on. But the heart wants what the heart wants, and apparently my subconscious is in the game as well too lol 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Hindsight_is_20_20 Posted September 28, 2012 Share Posted September 28, 2012 I'm having the dreams too. I feel like when new things were happening and I was starting to actually have fun going out with people, the dreams were few, if any. Now, some things have shifted and I've had to cut those friends out for one reason or another and now that I'm back to the position of meeting new people, the dreams are back. I find myself thinking I miss my ex a lot these past few weeks but it's quickly followed by thoughts of cruel things he's done which puts my mind back in check. It's weird how the yearning just hangs there like a shadow in the back of everything you do. It's kind of like a puncture wound that's almost healed on the outside and appears to almost be completely gone but really, if you were to open it up and take a look inside it's only just begun to start the healing process. The not knowing sucks. Not knowing when it's going to end. It's like being in jail and not knowing when your sentence is up. Link to post Share on other sites
Hawaii50 Posted September 28, 2012 Share Posted September 28, 2012 if you can realize it's a dream, and find the mindfulness to ask questions, your unconscious would amaze you! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Mike_d Posted September 28, 2012 Author Share Posted September 28, 2012 if you can realize it's a dream, and find the mindfulness to ask questions, your unconscious would amaze you! within the dream? interesting. maybe if it happens again I can relex. I do recall that when she was talking to me she said her statement, and then reframed it into what I posted. I remember that the reframing was much more brutal, thinking wow, that was pretty impressive the way you took that and sharpened it up. I'll try to hang on to that suggestion, I'm sure this isn't the last dream mahalo Link to post Share on other sites
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