On and Off Boyfriend From Middle School.

[bluelights]

so me and him have dated since grade 8, on and off. To be more specific:

Grade 8: dating.

Grade 9: not dating.

Grade 10: dating

Grade 11: not dating

Grade 12: not dating

First year University - Dating.

 

I'm in first year right now, and we've recently gotten back together. He told me he never stopped thinking about me, and same goes for me. What we had was honestly really special, because I know he's a genuine guy and means what he says. He's not typical. He's a gentleman. When I was sick last week, he went out at midnight to buy me stuff and he goes out of his way to take care of me. His actions show he loves me still, after all these years we always had feelings for each other. It's definitely "young love", but true love too, I guess.

 

Anyway, for grade 11 and grade 12, he was dating ANOTHER girl on and off. Let's call her Rachel. They were best friends for grade 11 and 12, and I guess I lost my trust in him because even though we broke up I assumed he wasnt gonna date anyone else.

 

I went through his phone recently (I know I shouldn't have, but like I said, I lost my trust in him because i felt like he was only supposed to love me - unreasonable, I know) and i saw him and her texting. They're still friends, which is okay with me because I'm friends with my ex. She was visiting our city and he invited her to stay over at his residence (with 3 other roomates) and he said things like how he was checking her twitter and just some general comments on it. And then it said "We were supposed to stay friends after our break up, but you're not acting friendly!" I felt like crying while reading everything, even though it showed no "cheating" stuff.

 

But eventually I got upset and then he told me he would've stayed at my place if she visited, he invited her over because shes best friends with one of his other roomates (which is true), and that he would've stayed over the night at my place anyway (he always stays the nights at my place) or that he would've slept on the couch. But then again, he never even TOLD me about her coming, in which he said that she decided not to come and if she was coming, he would've told me (which he probably would have, but the fact that he was waiting last minute to tell me..) It's also the fact that he still looks over her twitter, but then agaian they're friends so i dont know if that's unreasonable of me to be jealous.

 

I love him so much and he said how he feels about me is so much more stronger than how he felt about her, it's different, and that's why he keeps coming back to me.

 

Some background info:

- I was always the one to break up our relationship

- He was always a good boyfriend, never cheated

 

But the fact that he went after "Rachel" 6 months after our grade 10 relationship, and that he dated her for longer than he dated me consecutively, and the fact that they were best friends, and the fact that they're still friends, and the fact that he's the kind of guy that's "hard to get" (he barely likes any girls) but still went for her.. like i felt like he'd always be mine.

 

I'm just mad that he never told me about her coming, still looks at her social networking sites, still good friends with her, still WANTS her to talk to him (clearly shown from the "you said we'll be friends!" comment).

 

He told me he'd do anything for me, when i was crying about this he told me that he'd stop talking to her if i wanted him to , that i'm the only one and when i was telling him to go, he wouldn't leave. I don't know what to do. am i being irrational?

 

BTW, i never read all the texts - i was too scared to read the rest. the texts werent flirty, but I don't think friends are supposed to text like that. i dont know.