dan4120 Posted October 5, 2012 Share Posted October 5, 2012 I am angry. I do not want to be. What can I do though? I wish that there was an off button to my anger and all of my feelings that haunt me on a daily basis. I want to call out sick from my feelings, I cannot get past it sometimes. I did some thinking during my run this morning. It was about why I changed for someone as opposed to compromising and keeping who I was and improving on myself. Well I had done some bad things in my late teens and early twenties. I had stolen some money and mismanaged some relationships all at the cost of "having a good time" but I was young and I think in doing that I felt to get away from that bad that I needed to change, I was not a good person. I have learned a lot from the experiences but I have this gaping void because of the ending of my marriage. At first it was separation anxiety and the feeling of "this is the end" and rightly so, I think anyone who goes through what I went through have the same things happen to them. Going back to my anger, I want to change how I feel.... I just do not know how long it will take. I guess baby steps... baby steps. Link to post Share on other sites
FocusOnMe Posted October 5, 2012 Share Posted October 5, 2012 Hi Dan, I know how you feel. I wish there was a way to turn off the anger and despair as well. We just have to go through these feeling and from what I have experienced since the end of August is that the days do get easier, the crying has seemed to lessen and get shorter in episodes, but the thoughts dont seem to stop. I wish there was a quicker and easier way to get through this, but for me, being abandoned and swept away and replaced by an OW is what really is killing me inside. :'( Link to post Share on other sites
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