overcoming mental agony

[Ashish12vc]

hi everyone,

i am a 23 year old guy,working as a mechanical engineer and have been dating a 19 year old girl past an year..we have been living in a long distance relationship and i met her through facebook,she's from mauritius and i am an indian....even though people say that online dating doesn't works and most of them are fake ..but still i tried and went for it...her ex was my best friend but he never cared about her and was cheating on her back..and she used to panic alot..so it melted my heart and i went for her...though it created lot of hurdles but still i managed to cross it...i don't know how much i was correct in what i did but still no regrets...the girl also cheated that guy twice..she said it was her immaturity just because in teenage such things happen..still i gave her a chance with my life....i used to chat a lot with one of my best female friend...i mean we used to joke a lot...recently she viewed my chat with her i mean after a period of 10 months...my girl never liked her..so i blocked her and deleted her out of my life...i mean whatever she didn't liked..i did the same..but she blamed me that i was cheating her...plus my past wasn't that good as such she would drag it anyhow in between when she's not in a mood...the day she saw my conversation with my friend...she started swearing on me,abusing me...i said ok i m ready to listen that just because i am wrong..but then she started on my parents..that its due to them you are like this..a flirt and all that...i couldn't bear it when it came on my parents and in turn i insulted her alot...i never knew it would go like this..

when i was in relation with her...if i used to cry for her..she used to say don't cry like a kid...you are still not matured...i mean if i m trying to express my feelings for her..isn't that something wrong to say like that??i truly loved her but now she's just out of my life..and i keep on thinking about her...its been a month and i am finding it hard to get over her...and she's not even feeling the same for anything...i mean i m the one who always speak sorry and bow my head....she said i can't ever trust you just because of my past and the conversation..i said i understand i live far but i would try my best to regain whatever faith you lost in me...but she's so adamant and rude....i lost this relation..i had my tickets to go and meet her for the first time..after an year of my job but i had to cancel it..her mother loved me a lot....i don't know what to do

 

thanx for listening