Is this normal? Could use some guidance

[fray5]

Some of you may remember me if you read the breakup section of the site. Basically, I got out of an emotionally taxing relationship about 2 months ago. To summarize it- I put a lot of myself into it and while thinking I was being considerate/understanding, she was actually walking all over me near the end of the relationship; also turned out she had another bf 2 wks after we ended it. I mention this bc I think where I'm at now is due to still recovering from this...

 

I've been finding myself worried with where I'm at in life and if I'm doing what I'm meant to be. I'm 25 and have a great job with the government, I have great family and friends, I'm in shape and healthy, I have hobbies I love, etc. Also what is bothering me is I've been on several dates with girls since my breakup, and I find myself not attracted to any of them. I had this one girl in my bed, and she was one of the really "pretty, sexy type" but I just couldn't get into it. It was like I couldn't emotionally connect. I worry that I won't find someone who I can make that connection with where everything feels right, and I'm over the whole hooking up stage. Basically, I'm scared I'm wasting myself with the time I have now while I'm in my prime at 25. I don't want to be an old man and regret not doing something I wish I had been with my life. This probably sounds weird but I watched a movie the other night about cops who really made a difference and loved where they were and what they were doing while making a difference- it these thoughts I mentioned pop into my head and also made me a little emotional. Could all this be stemming from my breakup and I'm still recovering? I feel traumatized somewhat bc I've never let my morals and myself go as I did with this past relationship. I'm completely over her and know she isn't right but it bothers me too bc I feel really resenting of her. I feel I'm really kicking myself in the a** still about it and hope I can regain the super-positive person I was before it. I know this was long, hopefully you all can help me sort out what I'm feeling. Thanks for your time!