Getting Jaded and not liking it

[domple]

Ok I am 31 and will be 32 early next year. I am recently single and its starting to get to me. You see after a couple of failed long-term relationships I started online dating in the past year, as my friends and everyone is getting married my social group has dried up. Dont get me wrong I want to go out and do things but I do understand that people have their own lives.

 

In the past year I went out with 1 girl who had commitment issues and recently another girl who dated 2-3 months (through a friend) we talked about marriage and everything and she broke down as she had PTSD and said she cant handle a relationship and it would take her years to fix.

 

I recently went back to eharmony and the only ones that will even get past 1st stage communication are girls who are super obese. I dont mind a person who has a bit more too them but when you are chronically obese its a real turn off.

 

I have spoken to all my friends and their partners and I asked them to look at my profile or ask is there anything im doing wrong. All my life I have wanted to be a father and a family. I work hard and I have no commitment or issues that i am aware of. Except recently where I am feeling more and more hollow and jaded that I know people who treat their women like crap and they are still with them. But someone like me just gets burned.

 

One of my friends girlfriends said "Its weird, you are that guy that every girl talks about wanting to meet but feels they dont exist". I feel like im only attracting very little or scraps and you are talking to a guy who generally has an extremely positive attitude towards life.

 

My family are concerned that I am so focused on finding someone and they say just calm down and take your time it will happen. But right now I feel so lonely as my social group is there but they dont go out as they are starting families. I have tried going to church to meet people and they seem nice and I dont know. Maybe I should calm down I just feel that with every girl I date the more jaded I am becoming.