brokenheart415 Posted October 13, 2012 Share Posted October 13, 2012 (edited) Okay so my story here I feel like the bad guy. My ex of 6 and a 1/2 years left me for another man at her work. We started off headstrong as young lovers like Romeo and Juliet, I met her while she was a senior in high school, it was so romantic the universe could not stop us. Over the years we've learned so much being in a relationship, and learned to deal with each-others personal problems: her anger and jealousy issues and my occasional social awkwardness and inability to give in to our arguments. I admit near the 4th or 5th year, I started to fall off and wanted to develop my own personal life outside of the two of us. I wanted to hang out and party all the time with my friends, and learn more about myself in that process. Note that most of my friends were guys because she was always on me about making female friends, always checking my Facebook and checking my texts. At one point I gave up even trying to make new female friends, I just got tired of her giving me a hard time about it, I just couldn't understand it. She disliked one of my guy friends, saying he was a bad influence cause he always wanted me to go out with him and have fun. I was so fed up near the end of the 5th year, I told her that I wanted a break from her... she begged me to stay because she was graduating college and had no where to live after she moves out and wanted us to work things out. I agreed to stay and work things out, and our 6th year we made a huge comeback. She moved in, our parents finally met each-other, and we seriously spoke about marriage a few times. We had fun on New Years day, went on a cute little get-away trip on our anniversary, had a romantic day on Valentines Day, went on a 3 day get-away trip on her Birthday with a Romantic view of the city in a beautiful restaurant on top of the Hollywood mountains. A month later she took a job, which was offered to me first but I turned it down and told her to take the job since she was unemployed and I was comfortable where I was at. We both got into the habit of the work routine, and over the weekend I just volunteered to work more hours because I just wanted to save money... I guess to save up for our next get-away trip to New York and for our marriage/future. She told me she made new co-worker friends with the guys there, I was okay cause I've always trusted her and knew she has more guy friends than girl friends. She hung out with them usually over the weekends like Fridays and Saturdays. It started to become a habit, hanging out over the weekends, and I started to become secretly angry about this whole idea of her making new guy friends and her not letting me hang out with my own guy friends. I asked her if I could go on the 2nd Vegas trip this year with the guys, she said, "No, I don't want you to go especially if I'm not going, save up for our next trip." I told her it's an all guys only trip and we went last year. So I agreed and worked that weekend then stayed home... at the same time she didn't come home until 3 or 4 am all weekend. I was extremely angry... a few days later I told her I wanted to hang out and go to the bar with the guys cause I didn't get to do anything all summer, she said we need to have "the talk". The next night we had the talk and she wanted to break it up with me... I was so angry I said, "Do whatever you want, I don't care". She moved out next week, and I didn't even stop her cause I was so mad still. Then the day after I realized what I had done, and called her. We spoke in person, she said its really over, which I didn't get cause we broke up so many times before... and she always came running back to me because she couldn't deny her love for me. I basically forced her to hang out that whole month every weekend, but I knew something was going on, she was so different. One time I saw a hickey on her neck, but she made me believe it was only an allergic reaction/mosquito bite. She admit that she was seeing someone, and they are just "dating". I know that they are intimate and going headstrong like young lovers, and she is probably comparing him to me and realizing how much of a weirdo I was. The 2nd month I kept saying this is our final goodbye but then ended up asking why can't we be friends. She said I was becoming to clingy and desperate, then she got so tired of this and blocked me on Facebook and blocked my number and told me to never contact her again. I left her a few voice-mails, emailed her saying how immature I was dealing with this heartbreak. 6 months ago from today, I could have guarantee you she would have said YES if I asked her to marry her on that beautiful night on her birthday. Now I'm nothing more than a psycho weirdo ex-boyfriend who stalks her and am nothing compared to the new guy shes apparently "taking it slow" with. I can't believe how tragic this is, knowing most of it was my fault. Of course I learned the hard way, but why did it have to be the perfect soul mate of my life? If there is a 1% chance of getting her back like winning the lottery, what are the necessary steps I need to take? We connected so well, she said she never acts super weird in front of no one except me, and even after we've broken up we still connected so well until she decided to completely cut me off, and I'm absolutely sure I won't ever find no one like her, I was her longest relationship and she was my first true love. Tips and advice from experts? I know its hopeless but the support helps, sorry for the long story, there's just so much to say. Edited October 13, 2012 by brokenheart415 Link to post Share on other sites
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