nineyearsgone78 Posted October 19, 2012 Share Posted October 19, 2012 (edited) Hey Guys.. Well I've been doing alright.. a little bit better since my breakup 3 years ago! Of course there are the occasional bumps in the road. Long story short he broke up with me after 9 years together (part of the time was long distance).. via a 5 sentence email & vanished not responding to emails, calls, blocked me on facebook etc. He in the letter told me not to contact him that he wanted to find happiness. I was heart broken.. he had been promising he would move down just days earlier. I was crushed and didn't understand what had changed. He left me no answers. I later found out through wonders of social media he started dating his sister in law right away.. as in 4-5 days later. Anyway, since then i started dating a great guy we've been dating now about 2.5 years and am happy with him he's good for me. So once every blue moon (because i think the way in which i was abandoned).. i do get curious as to what that ex is up to. So tonight i peaked and he's still dating the midget fat sister in law... his bro in law had some fair photos up of them... yes i know i know what your thinking.. don't look, block the bro in law etc.. i know my head hears it but my curiosity overrides me once in a while! Anyway.. geese it has been so difficult to not email the girl he's dating some embarassing stuff i have of the ex that i've been like wanting to send her for years! .. i know it's dumb it's over etc.. but something about it wants me to make him feel ashamed. Most times I'm happy and content but once in a while he pops in my head and i get angry.. not for the breakup but how he did it so thoughtlessly.. so uncaring.. so horribly. I just want to make him feel a teenth of shame for having done it like that. I have photos of him in really explicit poses and some he took of himself with his dick in dolls clothing cause he was joking around once.. i know i know.. it's OVERLY emberassing lol. Anyway.. geese it's hard to not send them to her with a small amount of amusement at the thought and shock over her opening them. I know she'd think oh it's the ex.. but u know what I don't care what she thinks or him.. anyway he stopped thinking about me when he sent that letter and vanished. i just want him for 10 seconds to feel in shame at the unflattering images. UGh i swear it's taken every ouch of energy to stop myself from doing that. Ugh why do i have to take the high road.. what really has it gotten me anyway honestly?? The urges haven't gone away any.. even when i resisted any peeking on him for a year and a half the urges to embarass him haven't lessened..so should i just do it to get it out of my system? Anyway.. had to vent :/:confused: Edited October 19, 2012 by nineyearsgone78 Link to post Share on other sites
Minka333 Posted October 19, 2012 Share Posted October 19, 2012 Its good that you vented here instead. I know it's tempting, but don't give them the satisfaction that you're still thinking about them and haven't moved on. The high road is always better. Living well is your best revenge... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author nineyearsgone78 Posted October 19, 2012 Author Share Posted October 19, 2012 (edited) i know it's true.. what you say is true.. but man it's a hard temptation to resist heh. I almost feel like he got away with a crime if u know what i mean? He was so easily able to jump into a new relationship with no sad feelings about what he did or even letting me down more um "gently" than vanishing. I mean come on vanishing that's how u break up with someone? Then you get rewarded with a new happy relationship. I didn't eat for days.. lost 7 llbs.. was in a horrible horrible state and extremely sad for a LONG time.. missed him terribly.. i missed my best friend. I hate that he never had to face me.. what a coward. Had he wanted to end it i wish he had also done it sooner than leaving me single at 30 years old.. knowing i wanted to start a family. Anyway i guess i just want to add a little speed bump to his smooth drive of life... because karma sure hasn't yet! :/ Edited October 19, 2012 by nineyearsgone78 Link to post Share on other sites
Sugarkane Posted October 19, 2012 Share Posted October 19, 2012 (edited) i know it's true.. what you say is true.. but man it's a hard temptation to resist heh. I almost feel like he got away with a crime if u know what i mean? He was so easily able to jump into a new relationship with no sad feelings about what he did or even letting me down more um "gently" than vanishing. I mean come on vanishing that's how u break up with someone? Then you get rewarded with a new happy relationship. I didn't eat for days.. lost 7 llbs.. was in a horrible horrible state and extremely sad for a LONG time.. missed him terribly.. i missed my best friend. I hate that he never had to face me.. what a coward. Had he wanted to end it i wish he had also done it sooner than leaving me single at 30 years old.. knowing i wanted to start a family. Anyway i guess i just want to add a little speed bump to his smooth drive of life... because karma sure hasn't yet! :/ I completely agree it really sucks. I hate taking the high road and it often seems completely pointless. If I did that to someone else, I highly doubt other people would take the high road. I wish they would go through some weight loss and insomnia. It's not fair that these dumpers don't. And then they're playing happy couples with someone else. Just makes me want to gag! I'd only their current SO's knew what they're really like lol. Edited October 19, 2012 by Sugarkane Link to post Share on other sites
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